I never imagined that my babygirl wouldnt be here with me. I lost a huge part of me that day, some people dont quite know the feeling but others relate very well. For six months I carried this beautiful baby girl; I nutured her, she depended on me, my womb was her comfort. It all happened so quick, one day she's rolling around and kicking, then the next......nothing.  I remember laying in the delivery room, as I gave birth to her, hoping that I heard a cry!!!!! Of course I didnt. That's when I had to face reality: She was gone. Every so often I break down & cry, a lot like Im doing now. It hurt me so bad the day they discharged me from he hospital; here I was finally going home but I couldn't take Niya with me.And it hurt even more when I saw other women leaving with their newborns, especially girls. I know she's in a better place but I wish she was here with me instead. I miss her sooooooo much. I know one day it won't hurt anymore & I'll see my babygirl again but until then.......R~I~PSaniyah Janae' CheathamI Love You

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diape...
Aug. 13, 2007 at 11:44 PM I'm so sorry for your lose. It's so hard but you're a strong women and you will make it through. Hugs and I'll keep you in my prayers.

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Heath...
Aug. 13, 2007 at 11:50 PM I am so sorry! I really do know how you feel. I was just there two months ago and had to be rolled in a wheelchair past all the new moms with their new babies. I know your heart is hurting and breaking everyday, just know you are not alone and any time you need to talk to me, I will be here!

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gabby...
Sep. 6, 2007 at 11:43 PM I have never lost a child! But my sister did! My niece was 2wks & very healthy, but died for no apparent reason! Six mo later my sister got pregnant and had a son & six months after that his father was killed. 1 yr later she was pregnant with another son & then they told her she had cancer & she should abort. She refused. When my second nephew reached 6mo they told her on my b~day she had 6mo to live. She died 5mo later. It hurt me like nothing I've ever felt & I was anger with her for leaving me & my 1st nephew here with no parents at all. But I said all that to say.. In your grief always no that there is someone less fortunate than you. And believe & trust that God will make it better. He would not give you a burden that was to heavy for you to carry.
Be strong! You are in my prayers!

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Lady525
Oct. 8, 2007 at 12:15 AM

HI MY NAME IS LADY525, I KNOW HOW IT FILLS . ON MARCH 31,2003 MY BABY GIRL JAYLA PAST AWAY SHE WAS FULL TERM YES THE HOLD 9MOTHS.  ON THAT DAY  I WENT TO THE DOC. FOR AN APPOINTMENT THEY SAID THAT THEY DID NOT HERE HER HART. BUT JUST THAT NIGHT AND WHEN I GOT UP SHE WAS MOVING. YES I KNOW HOW YOU FILL, AS I SEAT BACK AN TYPE TO YOU I AM HOLDING BACK THE TEARS.  BECAUSE I KNOW THAT GOD TOOK HER FOR A REASON." I DON'T KNOW WHY" BUT I DO KNOW THAT HE KNOWS ALL THINGS. THE DAY OF HER FUNERAL A LOT OF PEOPLE GAVE THEIR LIFE TO CHRIST! IN MY HEAD I WAS SAYING YES MORE SOULS FOR YOUR KINGDOM. TO THIS DAY I CAN HOLD MY HEAD UP HIGH AND SAY NOT MY WILL BUT YOUR LORD.

SO I SAY TO YOU HOLD YOUR HEAD UP , AND I WILL PRAY FOR YOU BECAUSE I KNOW IT'S HARD. BUT YOU WILL SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL.

I WILL KEEP YOU IN MY PRAYERS AND I HOPE SOON ONE DAY, I WILL BE ABLE TO MEET YOU . MAYBE YOU CAN GO TO CHURCH WITH ME SOMEDAY. THAT'S FOR YOU!

 

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mybab...
Oct. 11, 2007 at 1:18 AM

I am so sorry you had to go through this, I lost my son June 1, 2007 (stillborn) at 35 weeks pregnant and it was do to a nurse error. Please read my profile and blogs. I miss my little man so much. I know exactly what you are going through. Please be strong and we all need to stick together

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an-an...
Oct. 13, 2007 at 2:15 AM I can say I know what your feeling I lost my Lily Rose on Aug 2 2007.. My thoughs and prayers are with you I know its hard to deal with and not wanting to wake up or go on about life.. She was with me for 20 weeks and I wish I would have died with her we had a choice to make and I wish it was different now we had to let her go so i could go on living .. what a choice and what a heart break that I deal with every day.. God Bless you and your Husband and please know he morns with you...

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bsmommoy
Nov. 21, 2007 at 3:33 PM I read one of your posts and that led me to your profile to your pics. It looks like you had a beautiful service for your baby girl. I am soooooo very sorry for your loss. I lost my son in 1996. Granted, I had six years w/ him so very different, but I can relate to the pain. I wish you love on this Holiday season and always. I am sure my angel will look after yours. Take care!

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C-sec...
Nov. 21, 2007 at 3:46 PM I replied to one of your posts and decidded to check out your page. I am so truly sorry for your loss. I said good bye to my sweet baby girl Amelia Maire last July 6,2006. I miss her still. I would give my last breath for her to have lived on. But I couldn't. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry for what you are suffering.

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sanaj...
Dec. 5, 2007 at 12:23 AM YOU ARE A VERY STRONG WOMEN, IN THINGS WILL GET BETTER AS TIME PAST. SHE'S IN A BETTER PLACE RIGHT NOW PLAYING WITH MY LIL GIRL SANAJA' IN ALL THE OTHER ANGEL THAT GREW THERE WINGS. YOUR LIL ONE IS SMILING DOWN ON YOU WANTING YOU TO BE HAPPY IN GET ON WITH YOUR LIFE. OUR ANGELS WANT US TO LIVE OUR LIVES BECAUSE THEY ARE IN GOOD HANDS. WILL BE ABLE TO SEE THEM AGAIN SOMEDAY.. MAY GOD BLESS YOU IN TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF IF YOU EVER NEED SOMEBODY TO TALK TO UM HER...

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2bmeMeca
Dec. 20, 2007 at 10:54 AM

so sorry for your lost-i can't imagine--good luck to you and you and your family aare in my prayers

 

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