Every night for as long as I can remember, I take a deep breath before bed and hope that tomorrow be better than today… sometimes I even believe it. I’ve had a lot of changes happen in my life recently ~ and when I say recent, I mean over the course of a year. My second child (14 now) was 2 months premature. This has had to worst year for her asthma related illnesses than ever in her 14 year of life. My DH decides to go back to school in the evenings 4 nights a week and also taking a pay cut from work in order to do this, and my grandmother thinks its best she move back to NJ from FL to help me… never mind that she’s also taking care of her father who is 92 years old… I became a single mother (not literally, just one less in the 2 parent team!) Now it’s 3 against 1, and here am I with a full time job, primary breadwinner with 2 households to support (since grams moved back I have to make sure she’s ok, she’s on a limited income)!!! How did I ever get through this, between work, Siara’s health, and all the other hats I had to wear to keep some type of order? And if I haven’t mentioned I was planning a very low budget yet nice Sweet 16 for my eldest Jennifer who turned 16 on 12/10/06. We had her party on 1/27/07… almost 7 weeks after. But what could I do. I managed; it’s what I’m best at.
Don’t get me wrong; with everything going on I know it took a toll on everything else in my life. When I think back I don’t know how I got through some days without completely falling apart. So here I am today, with some sense of relief that some things have changed… we made it through Jenn’s Sweet 16 (and very low budget!). I know this may sound sad but I lost my job as well… This saddens me on many levels but I believe that things will somehow work out. I don’t have the answers to the questions the even I thing about let alone those that follow a change like this, but again, somehow I feel that things will work themselves out… I’m not a religious person, though my children do attend catholic schools, I’m a spiritual person and I feel that if we deal with things calmly we can find the answers we need. I just thought I’d share what was on my mind! I hope that there’s someone out there that can relate and know that you’re not alone! Life happens.
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