I thought I was hormonal while I was pregnant but now I realize that was nothing. Now that I'm postpartum I go thru several emotions(confidence, exhaustion, sadness, anger, guilt)a day, but every day I feel a liitle better. Having a c-section sucked, I've changed a hundred or so diapers, done my best to keep the house clean, I've been peed on, pooped on, but my baby boy isn't too bad about spitting up. Breastfeeding is hard, but fulfilling. It feels good to know that I'm feeding my son the way nature intended, but it's tiring and it hurts sometimes. Being a mom has forced me to grow up(mostly), it's made me see the bright side of things, it's also made me realize how valuable a shower and time to yourself really is. I envy people who amble along with no schedule(my son and I have a semi-routine)and can go to the bathroom whenever they feel the urge. But that jealousy does not compare to the fact that I will always have a reason to get up in the morning(and a few times thru the night).