mediocrity at its finest...

[furgie-furg]

yep, that's me. mediocrity at its finest... and it's driving me crazy. all my life i've wished there was just one thing i could be good at, one special talent i might have. nope, not me. i'm mediocre (at best) at everything i have done, everything i attempt. i thought everyone was supposed to be good at something?

i'm not even good at being a mom. i send my kids to their room to play out of my hair all the time. i get frustrated and yell alot. i always tell myself the next day will be different, i will do better. but i never do...

[jessicalaree]

Aug. 23, 2007 at 9:30 AM Dont be so hard on yourself. I yell a lot to. So did my mom and I didnt turn out to bad!!

[semery71]

Aug. 23, 2007 at 9:55 AM Hey...we are SO much alike!! :) Not one thing wrong with being mediocre. It's better than sucking at everything we do!! hee hee! I like to see it as a jill of all trades!

[klkoepfler]

Aug. 23, 2007 at 9:57 AM

I feel the same way you do.  But, I don't think you are mediocre (sp).  You have something special inside of you.  You are going to school, raising 2 boys, married.  Thats alot!

I was always trying to find my niche in life.  I am good at alot of things but I dont excel in anything.  The other night my BF and good friends were talking and my BF mentioned what a good person I am and he can't believe how lucky he is and wishes he had a mom like me when he was growing up.  And they all said DUH!  That made me feel good.

[mars33me]

Aug. 23, 2007 at 10:35 AM I know how you feel, but sometimes looking outside of your own mind and look at yourself as others see you... what do your kids & hubby think of you?  what did your dad think of you? you may not feel as though you are good at anything but maybe they do?  You're a wave of emotions right now, looking for a reason in life, kind of wandering around...I've done that, I know what it feels like.  I always joke around about being a "jack of all trades and master of none" I've had a few jobs in my day, and never really felt like i was good at any of them, I've never had ONE job I've always wanted to do.  I've always lived where I could afford, made do with what I had, and worked the job that paid me the best.  tomorrow is my last day at the job I have now, next week starts a new opportunity and today the lady I work with gave me a card saying I was the best co-worker she ever had, I thought wow...me?  I almost feel sorry for her, lol. 

[BELLITASMOM]

Aug. 23, 2007 at 11:01 AM Even though you feel mediocre your kids think you are the BEST Mommy ever.  No one could ever take your place.

[Maureen131]

Aug. 23, 2007 at 9:36 PM

No one ever said being a mom was an easy job.  There are days when we all need a break!  There is nothing wrong with a little me time.  I say figure out what hours of the day you feel at your best and spend that time playing with your kids.  Even if it is only for 30 min i garentee that will be the best part of their day!  Most of the time if you give them a small amount of your time they will give you plenty of time and go off and play for hours/   Do not be so hard on yourself !  All moms yell from time to time.  If we did not do that they would all walk all over us.  Just remember to count to 10 then correct!  You are a great mom I am sure!  You are probably still stressed out from everything you just went through,  It takes time to heal sweetie!  Take time to reflect everyday!  Listen to some soothing music and totally let yourself relax! 

Maureen

[Kas0617]

Aug. 23, 2007 at 11:04 PM I can totally identify with everything you wrote. No, you are not the only one to feel like this.

[lillpop]

Aug. 24, 2007 at 1:03 PM

 I think if you take those blinders off , you will see there are lots of things your good at !

  Mine is Blowjobs and cooking!

[lillpop]

Aug. 24, 2007 at 1:04 PM  Practice makes perfect! 

[saulsmom]

Aug. 24, 2007 at 6:13 PM

DON'T WORRY TO MUCH WE ALL YELL AT THEM ONCE IN AWHILE. WE ALLNEED A BREAK THAT'S WHY WHEN MY HUSBAND IN TOWN HE TAKES OVER HE KNOWS THAT I HAVE TO BE IN HERE WITH THEM ALL DAY SO HE UNDERSTANDS AND HELPSME. I LOVE TO GO PLAYING IN THE CASINO SO I DO THAT AND I FORGET MY PROBLEMS THERE. AND I ALSO WIN LOL. NOW THAT'S FUNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.  IT'SOK TO SEND THEM TO THEIR ROOM KIDS NEED THEIR SPACE TOO SO DON'T TORCHER YOURSELF SO MUCH AS LONG AS YOU'RE THERE FOR THEM YOUR BEEN A GOOD MOM. DON'T WORRY WHAT PEOPLE SAY THEY ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING NEGATIVE TO SAY ANYWAY SO GIVE THEM A REASON TO TALK LOL.

TAKE CARE AND RELAX. OK