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February 8, 2007 at 11:48 AM by sweetshygurl044
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Well everyone this is going to be my first child. My boyfriend and I honestly thought that I couldnt have any children so I never thought that I would end up pregnant. Well I was wrong I am now 3 months pregnant without the father. I was living in Alabama with my boyfriend when I found out that I was pregnant, when I told him he didnt seem happy at all , he wouldnt even let me talk to him about the pregnancy. That really hurt me. I dont have any family down in Alabama because my mother and father are in Massachusetts. So oneday last week I got a call from my parents and they said I could come back to mass and have the baby up here. They will help me with everything I need to take care of this child. I guess what Im getting at is, ive been very depressed without the father and I miss him so much, but he was very abusive towards me and I couldnt be around that while I was pregnant. I know it sounds silly for me to say that I miss him, but I hate him and love him at the same time. He wont have anything to do with me now that I have left. I just feel so alone. I cry every time I see a father with his child. I just dont know what to do anymore. I hate felling so alone without him.

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Written by sweetshygurl044 on February 8, 2007 at 11:48 AM
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I wanted to welcome you to cafemom. Also some of that emotion you have might be related to pregnancy. you will be a great mom and if he's not happy about the baby and abusive towards you then you are so much better off with your parents. I wish you all the luck in the world. I don't know you but I think you will be a great mom obviously since you made the move of going back home. Congrats on your little miracle.

rocamom Feb. 8, 2007 at 11:51 AM

I think you should take your parents up on their offer and take time to enjoy your pregnancy and then the joy of having a little one. It will be hard not having your boyfriend around but it sounds like you definitely deserve better and so does your child. The alone feeling is hard but it does go away just be patient.

navywife77 Feb. 8, 2007 at 11:51 AM

You aren't all alone...sounds like you have wonderful loving parents. I'm sure you do miss your ex-boyfriend, but, sounds like if he was abusive to you, not having him around is the best thing for you and the baby. You will, someday, find someone who will love and treat you the way you deserve to be treated, and who will love your child. Until then, know you have loving parents, and will soon have a baby who will love and need you, too.

GJmom Feb. 8, 2007 at 11:53 AM

I had my first son when I was 15. The father did not stick around. And my family sent me off to a maternity home. But eventually they let me come back home and have the baby. I felt very alone. But then my son was about 4 months old and this guy asked me on a date. Of course I was a little scared. But I went out with him. And now almost 14 years later I am still with that man. And my son calls him Daddy. It will be hard don't get me wrong. But think that baby growing inside of you will need you and you will love that child with every bone in your body. Don't give up. Someday everything will come into play and you will have deserved everything.

jmattox Feb. 8, 2007 at 11:56 AM

i would say Baby 1st. Its a hard thing to go through, i canot say much myself about it, but i can imgaine. It is good your arents are so throughtful and willingto help.

If you need to talk at anytime. leave a message. i have a good ear :-)

MiracleTwins Feb. 21, 2007 at 5:18 PM

Girl dont sweat it at all, been there 2 times and its never a good thing to have the father not want anything to do with the child. Trust me your much better off without him, but dont forget the little thing called CHILD SUPPORT my mother in law once said you play you pay. So if you need a friend to talk to about it, hit me up i am no expert but i have had my share of children and no daddys until now.

meredithsmommy Mar. 6, 2007 at 9:35 PM

Hello, I live in mass too. Im sorry you are in the spot your in. But you will be much better off with out him, an abusive father in the picture will just make life so much harder for you both. good luck hope to hear back from ya.

Kelians3lil1s Mar. 13, 2007 at 12:07 PM