How did I get here?

[twogirlsmomma]

Life offically sucks, but with each day it will get brighter I guess. I left today, and for once it was a mutual thing. I don't really want to go into details of our relationship, because that's private, but still... I am just at a loss for words.

My heart broke last night as we talked, and it broke again as we said our goodbyes. And for once this maybe the final good bye. I am hoping not but as the saying goes "Hope for the best, expect the worst." I do love my husband, and I know he feels the same.

So right now the goal is to take it day by day and fix myself. Because how can you have a good relationship with someone else when you don't even have one with yourself? That's something we both need to work on seperately. In the end, God will do what is in his will, and that's comforting.

If your religious, please pray for my family and me. If not, then keep us on your mind. Thanks for all the help and support!

[Luvmykiddios]

Sep. 26, 2007 at 10:19 PM Take it 1 day at a time and you are so right if you dont love and respect yourself nor are happy with the person inside then it is fair to say not in a healthy time in life. I will keeop you in my thoughts and prayers for you and your family and please get heatlhy so you can be happy and have a wonderful life. IT can and will happen , dream and dream big my friend.. Keep me posted...

[notsoaveragemom]

Sep. 27, 2007 at 6:59 AM I am so sorry you are going through this.... Try to stay positive.  You are taking a big step in helping yourself sort through whatever issues you have within.  My thoughts and prayers are with you and our family.

[Loreeleeta]

Sep. 27, 2007 at 4:24 PM Sorry to hear about what you are going thru..I totally understand have been going thru some of the same things I will add you to my prayers dont give up!

[melody665]

Sep. 27, 2007 at 11:37 PM

Hey Sweetie,

 I am so sorry that I didn't get to see you b-4 you left. You know that you and the kids mean a world to me and adrian. Justin is a man so he is gonna believe what ever is told to him . I didn't even know that him and Jess knew cause I wouldn't say anything like you had ask .Y ou know if there is anything I can do I will do it, and yes I will keep you in my thoughts and my prayers, cause who else am I gonna get Mary K from? Call when you can or send me an email. Give the girls hugs and kisses for me. Love Meme and Melody