Well, last night I went on a date for the first time since my ex left me two months ago. I quickly found out that I'm no where near ready to start dating! I'm just not ready to start looking and quite frankly I like being single. The man I went out with was great; very polite, nice, interesting, and VERY attractive..and he wanted to go on a second date, but I just couldn't get into the date! I still have a lot of left over feelings for my ex that I need to work through and I need to find out who I am as a person without my ex. I wish that I wouldn't of went out with such an amazing man before I figured this out though, he was really great! I just think that I need to focus on myself and my son right now. I just want to live my life for me and my son for once! I need to be independent and learn to lean on myself and not be dependent on someone else! I really like this feeling on independence and freedom and I'm just not ready to give that up yet, I mean I just started! Thanks for reading!