Cant stand to be at my house
- October 14, 2007 at 12:56 AM by Tequila_Sunrise
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I AM GOING INSANE! My grandmom died at my house so all I really do when here is feel sad and depressed and think about her. It is really hard to be in the living room where she died, I dont even want to look at it.
Im still waking up during the night and in the morning expecting to hear her yelling for my mother and still go downstairs in the morning expecting to see her there.
I really hope my dad gets that money he is suppose to in January so we can move out, I do not know how much longer I can stay here
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im very sorry that your grandma died. your in my prayers. my grandpa died 2 years ago and i still expect to see him when i walk in my grandmas house. he was creamated and there was no funeral. it was really weird for me because when someone dies theres just supposed to be a funeral. i felt like i had no closure. and to make matters worse, she had his ashes put in an urn and its sitting in her living room. i didnt think i could handle it either. in fact the first time i realized that the urn was sitting right beside me, i had to leave because i thought i was gonna be sick. i wasnt sure how to deal with it. so i prayed and prayed and prayed some more. and since i obviously cant stop seeing my grandma, i had to come to terms with it. so now i walk in and say "hi poppie!" because it makes me feel better and still close to him. i was very close to my grandpa. and i visit with my grandma and when i leave i tell him bye. it sounds like you were close to her. its ok to talk to her. and it might help you to get passed feeling so crazy all the time. of course you'll miss her but ive found that talking to your loved ones who have passed on makes a world of difference. my best friend died 6 yrs ago and was 6 months pregnant. i thought i was gonna die with her. but i talk to her about everything. and when something reminds me of her like a song or a pic or whatever, i blow kisses toward the sky. its kind of a me and her thing. but it helps me to know that no one else knows what that means. its just between us. i hope this helps you out. it may never go completely away but it will get better. take care and God Bless!
your in my prayers
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