yes..there is actually do 2 yrs over if I could..1998 then 2003, 1998 was my divorce, I was divorcing a cop and pretty much didnt fight any of the divorce because anytime he argued with me about it he had a gun strapped to his waist. I ageed to sell out house that my Ryan  grew up in, I remember the first time Ry saw the for sale sign in the front yard and the look on his face...this was his home...I would not have sold that home if I could change  it..somehow I feel that this was the start of his heart being broken even though he seemed to do ok..

Then 2003 the yr I lost him, I should have known something was wrong ,I am his mom. They said they could find no cause for it, so I am told how could I have prevented it. He died in his sleep, they could find no thing wrong with him, why didnt I know something was wrong...sorry for the rambling, just a tough day...hugs to you

Cin03 Oct. 28, 2007 at 12:38 AM

Would I do a year in my life over?  The only thing that has really bothered me the last few years is selling our family home in Claremont CA..it's the last home all 4 of us lived in together...but the boys moved on and at the time in 2003 we felt it was the best thing to do.  I still miss the house, but I think what I really miss is family get togethers there.  On the other hand, if we had stayed there we would have missed out on some learning lessons and enlightenment along the way.  Kind of a moot point now, but I used to think...what if....

dogmom Oct. 28, 2007 at 9:34 AM

Go back a year.  No question about it.  I would go back and listen to my gut feeling when I got my daughters e-mail.  It didn't say anything unusual until the end when she asked me to kiss her puppy Roxie on the ear for her.  The panic attack rushed through me.  I should have gone to see her that weekend.  I e-mailed her back and called and left messages.  But she did not return them.  I would have gone to St Louis and been there during the roughest time in her life.  I have text messages from  the 17th to the 22nd of April.  She took her own life on the 22nd just after midnight.  She and her boyfriend were fighting.  The text messages were bad enough, but who knows what he said to her over the phone or in person.  Yes, I would go back!

MandiesMom1985 Nov. 1, 2007 at 1:21 PM

I would go back to my childhood and get to know the man i called daddy.he shot his self on nov. 10 2005.it is a hard thing to go through,time heals but it never goes away.i realized i really never knew who he really was,thats what bothers me the most. god bless you.

pcee May. 4, 2008 at 3:26 PM