Chantix and me... or how I quit smoking!

[LevityinBrevity]

The chantix works.
all last week of taking it I didnt really WANT to smoke but smoked cause that is just what I did when I talked on the phone, drank my morning energy drink, got stressed out by the kids, just something I did every few hours.
I Smoked less because of this.. I didn't feel really bad or anything.
I thought on Tuesday (or was it Wendsday) that i was havening with-draws but it was PMS.
I know the Chantix was blocking the nicotine but I didnt really feel bad. I was still getting my metal fulfillment so I didn't thing about the physical stuff.
Now today is my quit day.
I will admit I did have a half a cigarette this morning I just could not help my self. I felt on edge... I felt like my day couldn't really start with out it.
Now I don't really feel extra stress or anything I dont FEEL the withdraws but I keep thinking about it keep thinking about how i need a smoke. I would be sitting in the car driving the kids to school or to the gym and look over thinking I should be doing something I am missing something.
But then I would think " no you are not. you dont need a cigarette" and I was more or less ok.. I am feeling a little anxiety thinking about not smoking any more.. I mean I have been smoking for 12 years almost a pack a day for 12 years....
My birthday present when I turned 14 was a pack of smokes.. this has been a part of my life my whole freaking life...
I have so much stuff to do right now.
I have to sew some stuff I have to get my costume ready.
so much stuff to do.
i will BBL to write more about this though..


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