dreams and nightmares...medium length

[lilmama941]

so yeah,here lately i've been having not only dreams about haley but nightmares about her too....i dont think it means anything but still,why would i be having nightmares about her?

it all started before she was born......

i would have nightmares that i was having a monster,and not a baby! strange? i know trust me...it was horrible,it scared me so bad.....but when i woke up i was fine....and that would happen everynight....and then i would have dreams about her.....i never know what she looked like but i couldnt wait for her to get here!!!  i had dreams like me and her going shopping,and her being a cheerleader or volleyball player,and valadictorian at school,and all this really neat stuff.......then she came and i had nightmare after nightmare about her...i was scared they were going to tell me that she stopped breathing and they couldnt revive her.....that one haunted me.......and then of course i had nightmares after she died...

these one were so vivid,it was like i could reach out and touch her and holding her felt so real.....but she was lifeless.....and when she wasnt lifeless she was like the baby from pet cemetary!!!! she tried to kill me but i tried to tell her no and she still hurt me.....i was scared for my life!!!  no joke.....

but now she has been gone for almost 3 months and the nightmares i have now are worse now than ever....someone took her from me and i couldnt find her.....i was scared and i terrified but i tried so hard to find her......she was nowhere to be found....then my most recent nightmare makes me tremble just thinking about it........haley was burried alive!!!!

this one i am most scared of but yet i cant do anything about it....i try to unburry her but the dirt just goes on forever and ever.....it doesnt end.....i just keep digging......where is she i ask myself but i just cant find her...and everynight i keep digging and i never give up.....

i dont know what to do to save her......i dont even know if she is alive or dead yet....i dont know if she is in a box......but like i said these are nightmares and dreams....i dont know if they are signs or anything....but if anyone can tell me what they mean that would be great.....thanks

-megan

[Sharpcat]

Nov. 4, 2007 at 3:04 PM

wow, that's pretty intense stuff sis. i have weird dreams about Gabby sometimes too....sometimes i am scared of her...not sure why, but sometimes in my dreams she isn't this sweet little baby at all, she's just scary! i think it's all anxiety related....the dream you have where you keep digging and digging i think is because you wish you could see her just one more time. it's like your subconcious is trying to work everything out....they will pass. it hasn't been that long, just give it time, and try not to gt too freaked out by them. i still hate having those nightmares too, though. just waiting for them to go away...

xoxo