So recently my boyfriend and I seperated. We have to be on speaking terms because he is the father of my child. I hated to move out, but he is a total jerk. Every time we talk he acts like his life is miserable, but I beg to differ. He was verbally abusive and never helped take care of the baby, so I feel justified in my decision. Ever since I got pregnant I have been under a lot of stress, and since the baby came out I have been under a ton of stress. I love Samuel so much and I would not trade him for anything. But it is hard taking care of a baby, my life revolves around him. My social life has ceased to exist. My ex gets to go out and talk to people and hang out with his friends all the time. I get one night of freedom a week and I can't hang out with a lot of my old friends because he hangs out with them too, it's really awkward trying to have fun when he is around. There is nothing to stop my ex from picking Samuel up for a few hours so that I could just have some time to myself. And on top of all this I still have thirty pounds to lose, my body is covered in stretchmarks, there are blackheads all over my nose and chin, there are dark circles under my eyes. I look like crap and hardly ever get to do anything, and he gets all the sleep he wants and gets to socialize all he wants!! I feel guilty for having these feelings, I'm angry and depressed.