my mom lost the battle w/ cancer

[stephanieci]

i lost my mom on nov 8 after a 9 month battle with lung cancer.i had to watch my everyday slowly die away its the worse feeling ever not being able to take the pain away from her after chemo and radation or even at home well she lying in her hospital bed their was so many time that i prayed to give me her pain so she dint have to go through this she was fighter and she thought that she could fight this and get better .her birthday was nov 7 on nov 8 at 10:20 she passed away she was 51 years old.thankgod i never started smoking because i dont think i would have the strength to live everyday in pain like she did.the cancer spread to her brain,pancrease,spine the cancer was eating her up alive.i thought i would be ok when she passed because it means no more pain but everyday i cry because i went to hug her one more time .i keep picking up the phone to call her hoping but knowing she not there to talk to.i love my mom and miss her so much.

[catelauren]

Nov. 12, 2007 at 7:46 AM I'm so sorry for your loss.  God bless your family.

[swtmamajo1970]

Nov. 12, 2007 at 7:50 AM I am so sorry for your loss. I know how hard is it to lose someone. I lost my grandmother to lung cancer this year. I know what you mean when you say " i just want to call her, just hug her again" it was like that for over a month for my mom. Even for me, everytime I thought oh grandma will love this and go to pick the phone up I would start crying my eyes out. It does get better, You will never lose that love for her or that missing her. But you can take comfort knowing she is in a better place now and watching you everyday loving you like she always has.

[rednavy]

Nov. 12, 2007 at 7:53 AM

Hi there.... i am so sorry for your loss. I too lost y dad to cancer. He lived with me for the last 5 weeks of his life and we had Hospice. He had lung cancer, then to the brain and organs. I know what you are going through.

I can tell you that in time you will feel better. When My mom died in 01... I used to do the same thing.... pick up the phone to call her... then realize OMW... she's not there!

it's tough now... I'm sorry you are in such pain... but one thing you have that you will always have are fond memories.

Hang in there... you can message me anytime. I mean that. I have a lump in my throat right now.. tears in y eyes. I know how you feel.

Blessings

 

[MommaDouble]

Nov. 12, 2007 at 7:54 AM I am sorry that you are having to deal with the losing your mother at such a young age. I also lost my mother to cancer, at age 58,  and it is one of the hardest things I have ever have to go through. She tried so very hard to pull through the cancer, but as I told her "your suit gave out, not the spirit". My best advice to you is to get to a grief meeting. Hospice offers them for free and it with people who have lost loved ones. You will never stop hurting or missing her, but the pain does get easier to deal with as time passes. May God watch over you and give you the strength you need to get through the following days.