holidays

[horselover185]

well the holidays are here once again and for the first time in 28 years i am not even able to get excited about them. This year is the first year i will not have my boys for the holidays and it has been kind of rough for me and them both. The hubby is still unable to work due to an on the job injury and the workmans com is still not comming in and it has been over two months. I have not got to see my boys at all this month and it has caused alot of fights between me and the hubby becuase he does not even seem to care that they are not here. It  is starting to look like divorce is not to far down the road because he does not even seem to want me around anymore. He never kisses me goodnight  or goodby and i have to be the one to say i love you first. I am not sure if i  would be upset if  he left  or grateful that all of the stress and the fighting would go away with him. He does not throw things at me anymore but i am just sitting here waithing for the other shoe to drop so i just dont know what to do.