I hate how I've been feeling lately...I'm either so mad that I can't stand myself, let alone other people. Or I'm horribly sad...or I'm just blank....like the anger and sadness take up too much energy....so my down mode is to be a zombie.  I hoped that I could avoid depression this pregnancy.  Maybe it's just a part of it all.  I've been ok up until recently.  But now, I've graduated nursing school and got a job.  I feel like my husband has taken that as his cue to be lazy all of a sudden.  I'm exhausted...working 40 hrs (at least) a week.  He works at a local resteraunt his hours are never set in stone.  And while I was in school he was working usually less than 40 hours...but enough to pay all of our bills.  (I couldn't work while I was in school.)  Now all of a suddenhe "has to go home early because labor was high"  Like every night...most nights he's scheduled 5-10...he comes home at 8.  He never stays his whole shift.  He's lucky to get 30 hours a week....When he gets home...instead of cleaning the house (it needs it BAD). He gets on the freaking computer and plays Warcraft.  (some stupid online game he's obsessed with.)  Anna, my 5 year old has been nothing but a holy terror too.  I imgine she can probbly tell I'm stressed to the max and just acts on it.   But suddenly everything I tell her to do...she does the opposite.  Everything I say she replies with "what?" or "huh?"  And when I ask her, " What did I say?"  She'll repeat it word for word.  GRRR!! I'm just so aggravated.

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