I need comfort!!!!

[Johanina]

I celebrated my 29th birthday today and when I woke up this morning, I was feeling so sad and wanted so much to cry. I pulled myself together and got ready for work.  I feel so much sadness much of the times.  It's as if I'm on auto pilot most of the days.  I only look forward to coming home and the feeling of my daughter in my arms.  There are times when I feel really bad over the fact that like me she is going to grow up with parents in separate households.  We are still friends, even though I still want what we had.  I'm still trying to get over the fact that my happiness is not complete.  I'm lonely, even when surrounded by people.  I just want a companion, but  I lost him.  We haven't been advertising the fact that we are not a couple and i'm sick and tired of having females asking the status of our relationship all the time.  Just that alone has me crying in anger, frustration and sadness.  I feel defeated as a woman.  Not as a Mother.  My daughter is my lighthouse in stormy seas. 

[6kellys]

Nov. 25, 2007 at 11:44 PM

I am sorry you are feeling so down.  I have suffered with mild ppd after having 2 of my kids.  It sounds like you might have some of the same symptoms I did.  You might check with your doctor to see if he/she thinks you might be mildly depressed.

As long as your daughter feels loved and safe, then she will be fine growing up with her parents in seperate homes.   You will do fine.  You obvioulsy love your daughter very much!

If your relationship with the father is not working out, move on.  It sounds like you are a great person, snd he is trying ot be honest with you.