It is hard to believe it has been 10 years.  Ten years ago today, I lost a love.  I was a senior in college.  He was a senior.  We both were looking forward to graduate school.  Neither of us made it. 

Regan Milan Rayford died 10 years ago today, and I loved him.  He was a great man.  The man with whom I thought I would spend the rest of my life.  A man that I loved so much, I forgave him.  

He was killed in a car on his way to spend Thanksgiving with his family.  He fell asleep at the wheel because he NEVER should have left at that time of night.  He drove right under a tractor trailer and was decapitated. 

He died 10 years ago and I still cannot forget him.   He was the only child that his parents ever had.  He is the only love I ever told the truth to.  He is the only one who told me the truth, even if I couldn't handle it at the time. 

 He was ALWAYS brutally honest and people either loved him, or hated him.  But no matter how you felt, you still respected him.  

I have married, and have had children.  My husband has no idea how deep I loved Regan.  I don't think anyone does.  We broke up before he died, but I was able to finally forgive him, the night he died.  He told me the week before, he was baptised and accepted the Lord as his savior.  That has always brought me soooo much comfort.

My heart still aches 10 years later, but with time, I hope it doesn't hurt as deep.  I lost a friend, I lost a loved one, I lost a real person 10 years ago today.  I pray one day, I see him again in my Lord's house. 

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Jaded...
Nov. 24, 2007 at 11:34 PM  Wow Mama.. I'm so sorry.  I don't even know what to say.

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sassy71
Nov. 24, 2007 at 11:59 PM I feel your pain. It's been 10 yrs for me as well, my kids father was killed on his way home and we were engaged.  So I truly know how you feel and what it does to you.

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Mrs_S...
Nov. 24, 2007 at 11:59 PM I can't imagine how you feel.  That is really sad, I know there really isn't anything a person can really say to ease pain like that. 

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Pooob...
Nov. 25, 2007 at 12:05 AM wow girl.. how sad.... one day... i hope you can set your heart at ease...

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queen...
Nov. 25, 2007 at 12:45 AM Take comfort Tiffany knowing that one day you two will meet again.

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mrs_s...
Nov. 25, 2007 at 10:47 AM Wow Tiff, I'm so sorry! I know a guy from high school that the exact same thing happened to~so sad!

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twinm...
Nov. 25, 2007 at 12:45 PM I can feel your pain on this one. Only it wasn't a boyfriend or a friend period. It was my mom. It has been 11 yrs but it STILL hurts like it was yesterday! I pray everyday that the pain will ease (I know it will never stop). Stay prayerful that God gives you the strength to endure the hurt. That's what I do. I am here for you if you ever need to talk!

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naynay85
Nov. 25, 2007 at 1:30 PM I'm sorry to hear this but you will see him again one day.

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hunebn72
Nov. 26, 2007 at 3:06 PM

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Mommy...
Nov. 27, 2007 at 1:13 PM

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