How to cope.

[Daemonsmommy]

Today I had an appointment and I was told to continue on my 200mg of Zoloft and my DR also prescribed 100mg of Wellbutrin. I am now on a total of 300mg of anti-depressants per night.

While I was at the store waiting for my prescription to be filled, my DH called and told me that his/his parents's dog, Barney, had fallen down the outside stairs last night and was found laying at the bottom in a pool of blood. They took him to the vet at 10 this morning and my DH couldn't get ahold of them. I called him after I got home and put Daemon downto see what was going on. He said he would talk about it later and I told him that if Barney was put to sleep or something, that he had to tell me now so I could start dealing with it before work. I work at 4 and he told me at 2:30.

Daemon hasn't encountered death yet and he has been asking for puppy for the past few days. I don't know how things are going to work out now with Barney gone. They said they aren't planning on getting another dog but who knows. I don't know how I am going to go to work knowing that I never got to say goodbye to Barney before he died. Barney and I have been friends for 4 years, ever since Ryan and I have known each other. Barney fell in love with me the first night I was by him.

Barney was going to die soon but no one thought it was going to happen this soon. He had cancer in his lymph nodes and the bleeding he had before he died was blood from 2 of his rear lymph nodes exploding and the acid from the lymph nodes where eating away at him from the inside. By the time they got him to the vet, he already had 2 holes in his rear that you could feel from the outside. I was not ready for Barney to go yet. I know Ryan and his parents were because Ryan already said his goodbyes the day after Thanksgiving and on the Sunday following Thanksgiving, Ryan's parents told Barney that he could stop fighting now and just let go.

I wasn't ready and I know Daemon wasn't either. Neither one of us got to say our goodbyes. At least I have a decent amount of pictures of Barney. Does anyone have any good copeing skills when it comes to losing a pet and how to help a young child cope. If anyone has an idea, please let me know. I am completely heartbroken because Barney was my puppy too, I loved him so much and he will always be in my heart. I love you Barney!!! Goodbye and have fun playing in Heaven, don't torture my cats too much! I love you so much Barney and Daemon loves you too.

~Manda~