I threw in the towel....

[Val5ft1der]

jay and i are officially done!  yeah, he said he was @ the buckin buffalo (he was suppose to be home around 10 or 11when 1 rolled around, i made my mother come get the baby) so i went there and it was closed, so i called and asked him where he was and he said he was @ area 42. coincidently, i was parked infront of area 42, so i walked in, realized that i had been lied to and i turned around headed for big shotz, he was outside leaning on a post right in front of the building, he got all bent out of shape because i had this kristen chick w/ me kuz he believes that she's the reason nabil (the guy he was with) tried to kill himself. so, well, him and i started fighting we were both screaming that we were over and such, and a whole bunch of other drama went down between me, him, kristen, his cousin tommy who was also there and nabil. jay and tommy took off in one direction, and nabil went the other way. kristen and i got in the car, as we were driving off we noticed that the 3 of them walked into another bar, so, we followed them. jay and i started fighting again and then he brought kira into it. he was so drunk and beligerant, he threatened t take kira away from me and i lost it! i threw my coat down and grabbed his face, i had both of my thumbs in his mouth and my nails in the rest of his face, tearing his skin as i brought his face down to mine, and then i head-butted him in the face. i got thrown out of the bar and so did he. so i went to the parking lot to wait for kristen and have a smoke. as i stood by the car, i noticed that jay and his cousin tommy were on the corner (& didn't see me) fighting. when kristen came up, she yelled for nabil and he went running in one direction and jay and tommy went in the other direction. kristen and i got in the car, and got nabil kuz he was falling over drunk and we weren't about to let him drive. nabil showed us were the van was parked so i could drive all the drunk fucks home and it was locked and he had lost the keys. so we found jay and tommy and made them get in the car. we missed our turn to get on the skyway, so we ended up taking the 90 to ridge rd. in lackawanna. while we were on the thruway, nabil and jay were running their mouths and kristen got really upset and tried to slap nabil as she was driving, this in turn provoked nabil and jay to try jumping out of a moving car doing 70 on the thru-way. she pulled over, and her and i were both freaking out on them about. poor tommy was stuck in the middle of the backseat between them asking every one to please stop fighting. (i feel bad that he had to be part of everything) so once we got off the thru-way, jay and nabil got out of the car @ a redlight and walked to timmy ho's so, that's when i called jay's mom and got her involved. we left them there, took tommy home, and jay's brother matt came and picked them up. so i went and tried to sleep @ my dad's house, but i was too upset to sleep. at around 11 this morning, i was all set and ready to hop a metro to my mom's house and her freind showed up. she took me to the apartment and i grabbed things that me and the baby will need just get by for about a week.i also stopped @ jay's mom's house and gave her the engagement ring that jay had given me. i now have to get a storage space and a u-haul so i can get my stuff out of the apartment and try to talk my stepdad into letting me stay here awhile so i can things on track. i called jay a lil while ago and told him how selfish he was and that i hope he proud of what he had done because he left his baby and baby's mother with out a vehicle and facing homelessness. i told him how much he hurt me in the past 7 or 8 months and that i hope he's hurting too and that i hope that the pain eats away at him everyday for breaking apart what could have been a happy family. then after that i playing with kira, and i noticed that she does a new thing, so i sent him a text saying "just so you know, if you say "piggy's" to kira, she looks at her toes and grabs them, she's starting to recognize things and associate them." he replied that it was "awesome" so i sent another text saying "c wut you get to miss because of your immature ways?" so what ever, people can say that i'm crazy or psycho, but i don't feel that i'm in the wrong in any way.

[shanna7313]

Nov. 30, 2007 at 8:28 PM

I am so sorry. It sounds like a rough night.

I wish there was more I can say. It must be hard. :( Hugs for you though and if you need to talk let me know. It may be for the best, from the sounds of it.

[cynee2415]

Nov. 30, 2007 at 8:39 PM Im sorry you had to go through that. I dont think he's worth marrying. However, I hope he can at least change his ways so that he can be a better father to Kira.

[MooNFaeRie30]

Nov. 30, 2007 at 9:41 PM I cant imagine what you are going through, but it sounds like it is probably better that you dont marry him. Iagree with Cynee though and I hope he will be a part of Kiras life.