Some days, it is just far too easy to keep holding on.. and far too difficult to let go.. It's been a rough week with a tumultuous wave of ups and downs.. and needless to say, my emotions have been beaten hard by some difficult news regarding friends and family.. My plate is overloaded, and yes, that's an understatement.
I have been having quite a few long moments.. laborious moments where my mentality is worn, and my heart is heavy.. So I breathe, and breathe deeper, then close my eyes, and exhale and pray for the strength to face the next moment.. but it always comes.. no matter whether or not my heart keeps beating, so long as I am still striving to love, to discover, to grow..
I have come to feel that a "heavy" heart is not such a bad thing, because at least my heart is full.. and I would much rather look forward to hope amidst my losses than to hold fast to complacency in self-imposed emptiness.
However tedious, however trying, however transient- I don't want to miss a single moment.. We have far too few of them as it is.