Changes

[Katcha]

Well, I haven't really been on here in quite some time. When I first set up this profile I was happily married, homeschooled my daughter, and owned my own business. That's all since changed.

My husband left me for some woman he met on the internet. Took off to Colorado to live with her and her three kids. I've found someone else...we've been living together for a few months now, but it's just so hard with the holidays coming up. I still miss my hubby so much at times and as much as I try to forget him and move on with my life, I just can't seem to do it. I don't understand why, either. I found out so much stuff about Jimmy after he left that I never knew. Seems like our whole life together was nothing but one big lie. Then you have my new man, Berry. He's a real sweetheart. Honest and sincere. Would do anything in his power to make you happy. So why can I still not get over Jimmy? Why can I not seem to move on? Why do I still miss him? I just don't have the answers.

I sent Dez to public school for the first time this year. She didn't do very well emotionally, so I took her back out after the first quarter. I guess it was to be expected. She's not taking mine and Jimmy's divorce very well either and then to have your first experience of public school be jr. high. Well, that says it all.

I've all but lost my business since the split up. I had to find a job outside of the home and I just don't have the time to put into my company any more. I now work at the Seneca Daylight Donuts shop making donuts. What joy.....NOT! I so hate donuts anymore. I never seem to get any sleep and I just never have time or money to do anything I want to do. It really sucks.

Oh, well. Things have to get better eventually...right? 

Tags: changes, divorce, life

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[moms3babes]

Dec. 6, 2007 at 12:08 AM  Hang in there. I think your feelings for your husband are ligit and it will get easier as time goes on. Try as you might to keep your head up and tell your daughter your feelings and let her share hers.

[pantherstepmom]

Dec. 6, 2007 at 12:10 AM Gosh, I'm sorry.  I had a hard time too.  I guess it's natural--after being with someone so long.  I even called my second husband my ex's name!!!   We were together--dating and married--for seventeen years.  It was hard.  It still is...But I count my blessings now.  I have a great husband--like you were saying--mine would do anything to make me happy.  I actually have been blessed from the divorce.

[TrevorsMommy507]

Dec. 6, 2007 at 1:12 AM Im sorry to hear whats going on. When my husband and i split for two months i couldnt get him out of my head. However, i was able to work it out! My husband did pretty much what yours did but their was no children at the time! Thank goodness! However your little girl wont understand they cant. Love at this age for them is almost impossiable to understand. But reasure her that your happy and it was for the better! And that this will only make her tuff! Thick skin will be a big part of her life as she grows and figures life out! But for you do a pro and con for both men! I did and my husband won! But your new guy will for you! Just remember this guy your with now treates you like his queen so something did go right! As for money their will never be enough in life! And as of work just be happy your doing somthing! And your job isnt forever your biz will pick up again! I promis! Just give life time! And what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger! If you ever need to talk im always around!!!