feelin' kinda blue....

[celtic_kaos_kat]

alright well my boyfriend and i are coming up on 1yr together in exactly a month..... and i'm not sure if we're even on the same page for what we want for our futures..................

 

little about him: he was married for about 8yrs.. has 2 kids w/ her.. and the divorce was finalized on may 14th 2007.

 now why i'm blue: one of those myspace survey thingies had a question about marraige. he answered he was already down that road once and unsure if that path will be traveled again........ i read that and my heart sank. one of my dreams was to get married SOMEDAY!! i love this man sooo much... and to read he's unsure on if he ever wants to get married again ((not worded like that though)) just hurts! 

 

i'm a woman so i interpret things differently and of course - myspace bulletins aren't working right now [[arggh!!]] so i can't even copy/paste what the actual question and his answer was...... 

idk - i'm hurt.. and been pretty down for the last cpl of days becuz of what was said in a damn myspace survey.................... i know he loves me and my son... but does that love come w/ boundaries?? i want to live w/ him someday... i want to marry him someday... i want to have a child w/ him someday............................................................................. i hope all this isn't in vain....

damn tears... always making it hard to see what i type :(