He keeps me at the brink.

[DriftJunky]

My life is nothing less than a roller coaster with blind corners.

My stbx keeps me at the edge of me seat in constant fear and paranoia of the next asshole thing he is going to do.

I have gone the last 2 days without a single word from my son. Not knowing if he is ok. Not knowing the real reason why he wasn't in school. Feeling completely helpless because my stbx continues to go againtst court orders and when I bring them up to my lawyer or the judge my words are ignored and I am told to deal with it.

How am I supposed to deal with it when my ex won't let me know how my son is doing? Won't let me talk to him. And tells me nothing because he doesn't think I need to know because I'm not the boss. Well hello asshole I have primary custody of my son, I respect you enough to call you with every detail of what happens to my son and let you know where he's going to be even if you don't have him, I let you know he's not going to be in school because he's sick.

My stbx just gets away with the stupid stunts he does. I have one final paper to sign and pass onto the ex and then the judge and our divorce will be final. But with the lact of repsonsibility and trust between my ex and I, I know I'll be bringing him back to court. This time I will push for a more strict visiting with him.

STBX's behaviour, lack of responsibility, and poor consideration for my son's health and well being is hurting my son so much. I KNOW it's not because I want to be in charge.

My son comes home to me so dirty and wrecks of goddess knows what. He comes home with over 15 insect bites all over him. Cuts and bruises that are  never cleaned and covered. Clothes that I dropped him off in 3 days ago. My little boy comes home sickened by the sight of beer and cigarrettes. My son comes back starving for attention, sick of the tv, and in dire need of wanting to play with his friends and go to school. My son loves his dad, but I can't stand to have to bear and bite my tongue for the shit my son has to go through because some SOB judge thinks he's doing the right thing by letting my son stay over there.

I have brought proof and documents of the things my son has gone through for 2 years now. And that has happened is some lame scolding from the judge to my ex stating that he needs to follow the rules better and try harder.

I will get my divorced finalized and instantly finding a better lawyer and get more custody over my son. I can no longer tolerate this.

I hate this so much. I know somewhere in my heart I cared for that man, but all I know is I am filled with hate and anger. I don't like feeling this way towards anyone, including the ex.

Karma. That's what he needs. Karma needs to come back and bite him the ass soon, that will atleast take the edge off.

[Luvmybaby333]

Dec. 22, 2007 at 12:35 AM

The Hawaii court system sucks balls. They have no desire to consider a mother's right to protect her children. All they care about is who's sperm made the kid. Because obviously if a man has sex with a woman-- he has a right to see the child made with his sperm. Sex equals male responsibility, of course. *rolls eyes*

My mom's GF went through a very difficult custody battle (on the Big Island) way back when. Her husband was a physically abusive, psychotic ASSHOLE... and the judge granted him custody of her son, while she got to keep her daughter. He split the children up because "boys need to have their fathers." Wow. Yeah. That's why I am so against traditional views of lineage and parent-child relationships. It's retarded, I like the theory that I grow my children in my own BODY, and I love my children more than my own life... so therefore I should be able to make all the important decisions about my children's well-being... including whether or not they get to spend alone time with another person (sperm donor or who-the-fuck-ever.)

 

*Gah* I hate people sometimes. I especially hate people who use children as a tool for their own convenience.