Faith

[elananme]

This is  a poem.  an expression of how i  feel if you are going to bash me then please do not leave a comment.

 

I had it once, a long time ago,

I felt it in me

strong as the summer sun.

But its not there now,

nor do i wish it to be.

My faith was lost

when  the innoncence was stolen.

I tried to bring it back,

and believe again.

Then the innoncence was stolen again,

and I cannot bring it back,

I will not bring it back.

Yes, I do believe in a god figure,

someone greater than I.

I do not think, in any way

that this figure is a loving being.

No loving being would allow,

the destrcution and theft of childhood innoncence,

No loving being would let

the continuation of suffering.

No loving being woud permit

children to starve, be abused, neglected, and destroyed.

I have lost my faith

and I do not wish it back

FOr to have faith in a being

who is supposed to care for me and love me

but who contiues to allow children to suffer greatly,

will do nothing but kill me in the end.

I will not put my faith in anything but the strength

of those selfsame children

who suffer everyday but yet still have hope and imagination.

I will have faith in myself to make things better for whoever i can.

I will live my life

faithfully.

 

[gt8ful]

Dec. 21, 2007 at 6:59 AM I think this is a wonderful expression of what you feel.  I don't know if you are going through something awful or recovering from something awful but you are writing out your feelings and that is so  healthy.  If something terrible has happened to you in your childhood or someone's that you love then I am truely sorry.  I have had my faith in God tested, broken, healed, broken and regained.  You, like myself and probably most of the world, will always wonder why suffering is allowed to happen and bad people are able to roam and terrorize the earth.  I guess because it's something that we can't see but are supposed to believe in - that is why it's called faith.  The one thing I do believe is that nothing happens in this world without a reason, whether it's good or bad, there is always a lesson to be learned and later shared to help someone else.  I hope this helps and I hope that you hang in there.  Take care.