Just another weekend...

[CathieJ7]

Ok, that's what this feels like.  Friday night Tanis had his friend over.  They behaved.  Shocking for two 9 year old boys!  Of course they were wound up but that's totally normal for them.  Saturday Will and I took care of the last of the Christmas presents for the kids.  Thank goodness they're done.  We went out last night.  We were celebrating Christmas and Megan's birthday.  Megan is Tony's girlfriend.  She lived with us for a year while Tony was here.  Anyway, the party was normal for the people there.  Everyone is really nice, I'm not saying they're not.  Even after hanging out with them for over a year singing karaoke, I still don't think alot of their behavior is necessary.  I'm still the "goody goody" like I always have been.  I wasn't feeling well either, so that didn't help any.  I don't think God approved of most of the behavior last night.  It is so hard being around people that are so unaware of what God really wants for them.  There was plenty of drinking, smoking, swearing, and resque' dancing.  Sometimes it just makes me so uncomfortable. 

This past year has been so difficult spiritually for me.  I know that God has a plan for me.  He's allowed me to make choices in my life and blesses them.  I know that even though all the things I get stressed about He allows to happen because He knows I can handle it in a Godly way.  He is the most important reason for this season and there's so many people out there that don''t really know. 

I don't want to sound righteous, I'm just putting down my thoughts here.  I need to do that sometimes.  I've been so stressed out and frustrated with things.  Things here can be so hectic and crazy.  Sometimes our family seems so disfunctional.  Will works at least 50 hours a week, as do I.  Angel has a job, working several days usually from 4-8 or 4-10.  Caitlynn has her boyfriend Jimi.  He is very nice I might add.  Then there's Tanis.  We get this call from the assist. principal about some letter he wrote.  A teacher got it by mistake, it was going to his friend that was over on Friday.  This person couldn't explain the letter to me well, she told me there was a toilet in it and that he was no longer allowed to use the "school post office".  OK, I asked her to send it home.  This is so stupid.  He wrote a letter telling his friend how school was.  He liked Kindy, 1-3 grades, but 4th grade was in the toilet.  LOL.  So he doesn't like 4th grade.  They're actually making him do more work! 

So we have all the crazy schedules.  Angel's been a vegetarian for over 2 years now. Tanis is a meat eater, and carbs and junk.  Caitlynn is mostly munchy and junk, but once in a while good food.  So, my goal is to start cooking for the family again.  It's been a long while.  So, 2-3 times a week is the start.  Right now everyone makes their own food.  Well, I'm going to try some crock pot recipies and they can still eat according to their schedules, but there will be the same meal for everyone.  MAybe lowering my grocery/household bill. 

Work is going good.  I have a new little 2yo starting on Jan 9th.  She's a sweetie.  Yes, another girl during the day.  5 girls all day long!  LOL.  Why are we such a whiny type?  I want to start up preschool again.  But using the purchased cirriculum that I used before, MotherGooseTime (www.mothergoosetime.com) I really enjoy making the projects with the kids.  They learn so much.  The girls are at that age now that they are sponges.  I love the crafts and ideas.  I just want to get more into what I really enjoy doing with them... playing and teaching.  I always wanted to teach, now I am.  I need to get back on track. 

Do I have any New Years Resolutions?  Yep.  Always have them.  We've been doing weight watchers style of a diet.  I want to restart that and get back to loosing weight.  I want to sleep better.  I want to feel better physically.  Cook 3 times a week for my family.  Do a better job at my job.  Be a better Christian than I have been in 2007 (read and share the Word more often).  Be a better mom.  Be a better help-mate to my husband.  And most of all.... enjoy my life.  I want to live like there is no tomorrow.  I want to figure out how to do that and not feel so depressed when there's no reason.  And I have no reason...  I know it. 

Well, I've drank my tea (candy cane lane- with splenda - no caffine and no sugar), and written down as much that I can today.  I'm going to go eat my chicken friend rice and chicken almond ding that just arrived. 

Have a great holiday season.