I love Christmastime. I think it is the MOST jubilant time of the year. However.... this year my heart is heavy. I feel the need to cry, but the tears hurt worse than the heaviness of my heart.
My entire immediate family and extended family come to my house for EVERY holiday, birthday, ect. Most of the time, it is a lot of work with little appreciation, but I can take that. Tonight, it was too much.
My younger sister's birthday is today, Christmas Eve. I have 5 children, a husband, a father, mother, and several other people that will be at my house for the better part of tomorrow eating dinner and fellowshipping. Since I usually cook a birthday dinner for everyone else in my family, my sister decides she wants me to cook her a birthday dinner. So, on Christmas Eve, the day before I have to play Santa till 3 am getting my kids things put together and ready for Christmas morning. She has a birthday dinner here at my house and there were 15 people here and we had a fish fry.
I started working a temp job 2 months ago to try and help make ends meet and prepare for Christmas. So, because I got my sister 2 other nice gifts for Christmas, I gave her a cheaper gift for her birthday. I gave her 2 bottles of Oil of Olay body wash with the moisture ribbons. Money is tight, she knows this. I also provided a cake, ice cream, and DINNER?!?!?!?! This ungrateful heffa has the nerve to laugh at my gift and make fun of it!!!!!!! It hurt my feelings bad. I tried to no avail to explain my gift to her, but in front of everyone, she dismissed my gift and laughed at it.
In my memory, she has NEVER given me a birthday gift. She always says she is broke. She says she has a child, and money is tight. SHE IS 26 YEARS OLD, LIVES IN HER GODMOTHER'S BASEMENT FOR $300 A MONTH, AND HAS 1 CHILD!!!!!!!!!!! Every Christmas, she makes everyone a plate of cookies and says Merry Christmas! How dare she make fun of my gift?!?!?!?! I thought she and I had a conversation where she said she really loves this kind of body wash but couldn't afford it. I explained that to her. She just laughed me off and said no.
It is not in me to go off and cuss someone out in my house but DAMN! My heart hurts for how bad she treated me and she acts like nothing is wrong. She sees nothing wrong with how she treated me. No one ever does. I give until I simply can't give any more. It is strange how so many people can depend on you and act like you are put on this earth only to please/help them, but yet, you are invisible.