A Sprial to no where...

[3mommy2004]

Why do I always feel like something bad is going to happen.  Every night I have to check on my kids at least 10 to a million times a night.  I hope and pray everyday that Bob will come home safe.  I am just so afraid of loosing anyone I love.  I wish I could do more.  I wish I wasn't so parinoid.  I don't even know what I would do without them.  I feel like I am not doing enough.  I feel like I have a void in which I don't know what it is or how to fill it.  I just feel like I am going in a spiral that I don't know how to get out of.  What is wrong with me.  Am I so overwelmed in love that I don't know what to do or is it I just am feeling lonely and need more.  I just don't know.  I Just don't know...

[minimongoose]

Dec. 28, 2007 at 5:00 PM dear girlie.... i'm a tad worried. this sounds to me like a bit of depression. maybe you need to think about yourself a little more? i know you're worried about your family, and that's part of being a good mother/wife, but it sounds to me like to you are being consumed. is there something you could do for yourself? find a regular babysitter for just a couple hours a week, and go have coffee with a friend... try (and i know it's a big "if") to make the hubby understand that you feel like your coping mechanisms are failing... something! this just doesn't sound balanced to me and i'm not really surprised... you try so hard, and do so well that we're all constantly amazed! but you do have to take care of yourself you know... i love you! feel free to call....