Another Failed Cycle...

[W4amircale2]

I am digging myself deeper and deeper in a whole...Feeling so helpless and realizing its out of my hands. I ask why?, but get no answer...but indeed I did...After getting AF, cried so hard my head ached with pain, I said to myself "I know that we did everything in our power to do the right thing and to ttc this baby we so desire", and still nothing...I called my nurse, and asked why?, she had an answer for me..
I said was there anything different, why did I get AF? She said the Dr, analyzed everything and said that my DH has a low count and something with the Kruger?? I said what? I was in shock... I new his sperm was good, not great, but its still not bad, but this is the 1st I am hearing about the Kruger! Well, it has to due with the shapes and how they swim...If they aren't shaped how they are supposed to be, than how do they swim and fertilize my eggs...?
I was at a loss for words, the feelings I have right now are mixed...I went through so much thinking I was the problem, did surgery and sooo much only to know that maybe I didn't need all this...We are repeating the SA next week, it is a special SA, with Kruger testing...My other Dr, never did this, so I could have avoided so much, knowing that I had a perfect cycle and ovulated every month...
So if this is the problem, DH will try and take something that my cousin will send from Italy, she is a Dr and there are things in Italy (meds) that we don't have in the US, that could help, and if by June, still nothing...We will take the next step to IVF with ICSI which my Dr is recommending..
To Be Continued.

I did a Pod-Cast last night with friends, It will air probably on Sunday, Episode 34,  I mentioned Cafemom...Its about Infertility..

 

Its called: The Second Time Around
WWW.TheBenedictFamily.org/

 

[mdmjam]

Dec. 28, 2007 at 5:44 PM I hope things work out for you guys!! I had a hard time getting pregnant, so I know how much you ache!!  BIG- HUGS!!!!

[Hot_Tamale]

Dec. 28, 2007 at 5:46 PM

Going through the infertility issue right now too, seeing an RE on the 25th of Jan..

 Hang in there, there are just too many success stories to believe you won't be one of them!! =)Keep your head up, you're not alone.

[itshippychick]

Dec. 28, 2007 at 6:35 PM

I'll be sending you as much positive energy possible!!!!!!!!

 

[larissacst]

Dec. 28, 2007 at 7:51 PM wow. at a loss for words, nothing i say will make much difference. isn't italy great? lol

[kim715]

Dec. 29, 2007 at 3:06 AM oh my...thats good news right? i was gonna test in the morning but af is making her appearance tonight :( im not going to do another round of chlomid either....i am going to insist on the HSG> good luck...send me the link when you get it

[ayerskplum]

Dec. 29, 2007 at 2:07 PM I am sorry about what your going through, but still hopeful because your getting some answers.  That was the biggest thing for me is not having answers.  Good Luck!!!

[eband]

Dec. 29, 2007 at 9:26 PM So sorry to hear you have gone through all of that only to find out different answers now!?  That's horrible.  I guess the brightside is finally getting a diagnosis with dh's sa?  Still just so hard to take it all in.   I hope this will finally give you that bundle of joy you  SO deserve.  ((hugs)) I will watch for your podcast.  Baby prayers as usual!  Erin

[crazedmom]

Mar. 21, 2008 at 10:31 AM I hope it works out for you also.