my romantic date with insomnia

[ErinleeUSMC]

I just want everyone to know that insomnia and I have now made it a full month in our love-hate relationship. We've had our tough times but every time I wanted to just give up and get a good night's rest, insomnia was right there, peeling my eyelids open and striking me with restless leg symptoms. We're celebrating tonight with a romantic evening of laundry and barfing.

It's 2:34am and I'm up partying like it's 1999. Actually I'm neurotically re-washing all of Ella's clothes, ALL of them because I'm not sure which ones have been washed and I just found out you're supposed to wash new clothes before baby wears them because for some reason they have toxic chemicals on them when they're straight from the store or something... I think this is probably related to some sort of conspiracy with that company that makes the butt paste. And anyway Dreft smells like the toothfairy lit a fart on fire, so I have to rewash that stuff in the Tide free stuff I got at walmart the other day.

I'm not doing this in the middle of the night because of some insane nesting urdge (solely), I'm actually up because the adorable little larvae that will be inhabiting these onesies has decided that my stomach is not a vital organ that requires space of it's own and her legs are lodged firmly in position to ensure that any abberation from a fully upright position results in vomiting stomach acid. I'm reaching a point in this long standing battle of insomnia where I almost, ALMOST could sleep standing upright, but I'm not there yet. Let's count that as a blessing... sure, I'm tired, but I'm not collapsing from exhaustion...?

Yesterday was nice though. I had a mocha java chilled ice coffee thing (is that why Ella hasn't stopped vibrating in almost 24 hours? jk) and went for a walk at the base marina with Tim. Then when we got home he suprised me with a huge bright pink flower wrapped present!! It was a bread maker (which I've wanted forever) and I was so excited. It wasn't for anything, just to make me smile and I love that he wrapped it too; he couldn't be any sweeter. I made chocolate zucchini bread and it was goooooood.

Insomnia, we have to talk. This last month has been really... special and you're a super special kind of body complaint. In fact, you rival every other one I've been with over the last nine months (what? oh sure, I think you're prettier than nausea...) but I'm just in a place in my life right now where I need to be... asleep. It's not you, it's me.

yeah, I'm losing it a little bit. I'm gonna go make a loaf of bread.

[AJsMOMMY2123]

Jan. 28, 2008 at 4:47 AM GEEE SISTER WHEN ARE YOU DUE???? THERE WAS A TIME IN THE END THAT I WOULD NEVER SLEEP... I GOT THAT RLS AND STILL HAVE IT NOW.. I AM SORRY I KNOW ITS A BIG PAIN GOOD LUCK

[DeannaScraps]

Jan. 28, 2008 at 4:59 AM Poor thing! I wish you sleep! It's another one of those fun little events they didn't tell us about that goes with pregnancy, huh?  Take care! Great post, by the way! Love your writing!

[shash1]

Jan. 31, 2008 at 11:46 AM lmao, sorry that u cant get any sleep but that made me laugh. I needed it, thank you!

[Asweetdreamer22]

Feb. 2, 2008 at 12:50 PM Thanks for letting me know that I am not alone. I can't sleep either and yet I am so tired. My hubby just does not understand. I don't know if its because my mind is racing with ideas of the future or the fact that I just can't get comfortable. I toss and turn all night and I am always sick because my little bundle of joy loves to push up on my diapham. It is just to uncomfortable to lay down. So hang in their your almost done. I still have six more weeks to go...lol...