These last couple of weeks were spent asking people to help collect baby items and furniture for my close friend in anticipation of her first baby, my godson, a little boy named Sean.

Wednesday, I recieved a phonecall from the hospital telling me my Godson, Sean Nai Hebert, was born that morning, and that his mother was asking for me. It was already late in the evening when I got the phonecall, I had a massive headache and Leland was already in bed. I wanted to rush to the hospital to see my Godson, but my head was throbbing and I had to get up at 5 am to go to work. I told the father that I'd be there after work, and that I was sorry I couldn't rush up there right away. After I went to bed, I heard the phone ringing off the hook, and finally got up when I heard the beeps for voicemail. I took the phone into the bathroom and listened as I heard my friend's voice mumbling and hanging up over and over.

The last voicemail was from the father... I couldn't delete the message after I heard it. And this is what it said "Hey... Kimmee... she didn't want to have to call you like this... but... the part I left out earlier... that Kaylin wanted to fill in for you... Sean is dead. Her placenta separated- there was nothing they could have done. They were bleeding out and Kaylin was dying and the doctor had to make the fastest choice... She didn't want you to find out like this. She's asking for you. Just please come to the hospital as soon as you can, please..." I sat on the floor and screamed. I screamed and screamed. At least, I thought I was screaming... but Gavin says I was crying. He told me that I was screaming in my head. Either way, I was screaming. I went to work and cried all day long. I stole Rocco's big bottle of Ibuprofen and swallowed a few every time I cried because every time I started sobbing, my head started pounding.

Eventually it started storming outside, and that was when we drove to the hospital. Sean was gone when we got there... they had already claimed his body for cremation. I didn't get to see my Godson's face... just in the pictures they took after his delivery. His momma was still woozy. She kept nodding off periodically and every time she came back around she cried. I just didn't know what to say. The doctor came in and talked to us about what happened. He told us about he delivery, about how Kaylin almost joined Sean. I just climbed into the bed with her and held her and we cried. I finally pulled myself away when Leland started fussing for food and promised her I'd be back tomorrow.

I'm afraid of going back there tomorrow.

So thank you all... those who wanted to help with collecting baby items, and those who delivered boxes to her home... but it seems they will go unused. But they will not go unappreciated.

 

Rest In Peace, Baby Sean.

You were too precious for Us and Earth. 

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Aloha...
Feb. 1, 2008 at 12:16 AM

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Crash...
Feb. 1, 2008 at 12:18 AM How very sad, its terrible well beyond terrible when a precious child is taken from us all to soon.  My thought will be with her and her loved ones during there time.  I wish you all the best

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heath...
Feb. 1, 2008 at 12:18 AM

so sorry for the loss.

i will be praying for you all. 

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cfh72
Feb. 1, 2008 at 12:18 AM I'm so sorry for your friend's loss, and your godson.  My prayers are with you both.......

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kayja...
Feb. 1, 2008 at 12:19 AM i am very sorry for the lost of the baby .. I hope u your friend is doing alright .. u all are in my prayers .

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heylo...
Feb. 1, 2008 at 12:25 AM I'm so sorry.

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salix...
Feb. 1, 2008 at 12:42 AM Honey I am so very sorry. Call me tomorrow ok? We'll talk and maybe we'll come over and Carey can watch the kids for a bit while you get some rest.

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lucky...
Feb. 1, 2008 at 12:07 PM I am so so so sorry. Wow. No one should ever feel that pain.

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Mommy...
Feb. 10, 2008 at 11:28 AM

Kimmee, I am so sorry for your friends loss. My prayers are with her, her family, and friends.

 

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lucky...
Feb. 19, 2008 at 12:06 AM I am so sorry, I didn't read these journal posts in order. I am so sorry for your friend, but if their is anything else I can do,  please let me know!!!

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