My week started out with me being very upset by my interactions with my sister-in-law. I knew when I filed for divorce and chose not to share the ugly details with my in-laws that they would probably treat me differently. I also knew that the fact that I had actually filed for divorce this time might change the way they treated me. Still it was hard to deal with it.

 On Monday I had resigned from my bus driving job (although it was fun, it's just not the right job for me at this time in my life. My birthday was Tuesday and I started to feel better. It was also my first day of class in college. A gift to myself and my children. Wednesday I had a surprise birthday breakfast with my Bible study friends...what a blessing they truly are! Yesterday I had counseling and turned in several job applications. This morning I have court ordered parenting class. Everyone who is getting a divorce in my state has to go to one...they are going to teach us how to be a good parent during the divorce and after. 

This afternoon I have court at 3:30 for the restraining order. My stbx is contesting the order so I get to defend my desire to have one that is, if they show up...they so far have missed everything they can get away with missing, including court. I'm surprisingly calm. Everyone has told me that it is highly unlikely that it will be dropped but there is no guarantee. I'm worried about being questioned by his attorney. My stbx will have to go on the stand first and knowing this has helped to calm me. I'm so glad I will get to hear his side of things before I have to testify. I just pray that the judge will understand the seriousness of what has happened and that I'm at great risk of being physically abused by him again. 

I guess the hardest part is what to do if the order is dropped. Should I go home or should I go into hiding? I guess I will play that one by ear. I can just see him showing up hear or calling and I don't want to have to deal with that. I also don't want to have the added fear.  



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Feb. 1, 2008 at 1:59 PM

You have had quite a busy week!  I'm praying for you as you go through this afternoon's court session...Trust in the Lord and remember he is watching over you and your children.  Let us know how it goes!


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