So, I stayed up until 2 pm last night because I felt like I was suffocating at home and needed some time to do just what I wanted to do. Of course that doesn't work well when I have to wake up at five with my daughter who is currently ill and then 7 for the day to send off Porter to school and tend to my little ones and their demands.

What brought me to this site? A few things. One, I think I'm at a breaking point. I either do something about it or I fall apart. So, doing something about it sounds more appealing. My kids fight all the time. If it's not the two youngest kids who are constantly fighting over toys and mom and space on the sofa then it's the oldest son of mine Porter fighting with Hansen my four year old who can't stand anything that Hansen has to say, EVER. Or it's Porter and Charise arguing to the bitter end about who's right or who should've done, said or obeyed! My husband has a very demanding job, it keeps him very busy, it pays the bills and leaves us very financially comfortable, but he also has Fiber Mialga. Some people don't believe in Fiber Mialga, but even if it's not real fact is he hurts all day and night, doesn't sleep well, is tired all the time and has trouble being available and active for me to rely on. (although that last part I mention about him he'd be furious if I told him that's how I felt. He really really tries, but there's so much he misses because he's on the computer or watching tv, and it shows through the behavior and feeling in the home when I come home to him watching the kids. Chaos is the only way to describe it.) I feel like I'm in over my head. I don't know that there is room for me and my likes, desires and hopes...working toward those things feels like a huge portion of structure and stability for the home life dissappears. So....needless to say right now, I'm desperate for a support group. so therefore, I'm not entering this on the side hoping to find someone one day that I have something in common with, even if I don't have something in common with you I probably have a lot to learn from you and I know that I will be better off knowing you.

Thanks for listening, I look forward to responses.

 

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Feb. 1, 2008 at 11:42 AM GOOD GOLLY GIRL, I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL..I HAVEN'T SAT IN THE TUB FOR A RELAXING MOMENT IN YEARS, THE THOUGHT OF ME DOING SOMETHING FUN ALONE WITH NO KIDS MAKES ME FEEL GUILTY BECAUSE IF I DON'T ENTERTAIN THEM WITH THINGS THAT DADS AND BIG BROTHERS DO THEN THEY GET NOTHING..UGH MEN..

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Feb. 1, 2008 at 11:57 AM I had four kids, and at times it seemed liked chaos reigned.  I am no longer with my husband, but we have four beautiful kids.  They grew up, and even though they're not perfect, they are good kids.  I can't really give you any advice, but I can give you hope.  They DO grow up,  and somehow or another, things do seem to work themselves out.  Never give up hope. 

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