I have had several of you wonderful friends on here email or chatterbox me messages asking how I am doing. So, I figured I'd do an update on here. I am okay. Sometimes I feel like I can handle this all and I feel alright emotionally. Then other tomes I break down and cry for no reason. I took Caitlin to see the Disney Princesses on Ice last night with DH for her birthday present. And most of it was great, but for no reason 5 minutes into it I started crying and could not stop for a bit. Then I got a hold of myself and had a great time with Caitlin. We were so glad Caitlin actually got to go cus she woke up sick and we thought she would not be well enough, but she rested all day and was good enough to go. She had a blast and it was a fun diversion.

I have pretty much finished up planning Elysse's memorial and burial. We are doing a memorial at a park by us on Saturday Febuary 9th. My parents, Jeff's parents and my Pastor will be there. We are realeasing balloons and scattering rose petels. Then I have a plot at a very nice cemetery already lined up, a small marker for the plot and the funneral parlor is gonna creamate the remaines as soon as they are released. I was afraid they would not do it cus I am not that far along and i am having an D & E, but they can and will no problem. And this cemetary unlike the other one will break ground in the winter so as soon as we have the creamation finished they with do the burial. And

I am touched by everyone's generosity due to my circumstances. The funneral parlor is doing the creamation for free, the cemetary is charging half price for the plot, and the monument company is also charging half price for the marker. The kindness of everyone has helped make this hard time a little better.

I am trying to enjoy my last moments with Elysse. This will be our last weekend together and I keep rubbing my belly and telling her how much I truely love her!

My friends and family here have been great! Things like this really show you who you can count on. And 2 of my friends have constantly called me and just been there! I am going out with one of them tonight and it is gonna be nice to just talk.

And DH and I struggled for a time. But, now have really bonded over this and are leaning on each other. This has really showed us how strong our relationship is.

Thanks again all of you for being there for me! I still continue to be touched by the unbelievable support I have gotton from everyone at cafe mom!


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Feb. 1, 2008 at 5:44 PM

I am so thankful that you and your husband have come to an agreement. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I feel so close to your family even though I never meet you. I pray for you all the time. Continue to lean on your husband and also the Lord during this hard time. He will see you through.

Lots of hugs and kisses


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Feb. 1, 2008 at 6:08 PM Kelly- You have not been out of my thoughts and prayers this entire time.  I truly feel for you and what you're going through.  God bless you!  Many many (((hugs))) being sent.

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Feb. 1, 2008 at 8:23 PM Thank you for the update it sounds like you are handling it as well as you can.  I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers as you go through this difficult time.

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Feb. 2, 2008 at 11:09 AM Kelly, you, your husband, girls and extended family are in my thought and prayers.  I hope all goes well with you and that you continue to do well considering all that you are going through.  I am glad that you and your husband are starting to lean on each other now.  I am sure that makes this a bit more bearable to have him supporting you now.

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Feb. 2, 2008 at 9:56 PM It's so glad to hear that things are going well for  you.  It's always true when a husband and wife comes into agreement nothing can stand in the way and God blesses.  Make sure you give Elysse to God so you can know that she's at peace. I wish this to be a blessed event, and take care of yourself.

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Feb. 2, 2008 at 11:07 PM You and your family will be in my prayers. I am horribly sorry to hear what you are going through, and can only pray that God wraps his arms around you guys!!!!

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Feb. 3, 2008 at 5:08 PM I know I don't need to tell you that God is with you and His arms will hold you as you grieve.  I cannot imagine what you must be going through, but I do know that there are many people praying for you and your family.  Love will ease this pain eventually, and the smiles of your two angels on earth will keep your heart warm.

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Feb. 3, 2008 at 7:32 PM


I am glad your daughter had a great time and DPonI. I am sorry you are going threw this hard time. may the next baby be happy healthy and a baby boy :D god bless dear and keep you chin up you are such a strong woman. love you lotz for all your courage and strenght at this hard time.

lotz of love


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Feb. 4, 2008 at 7:53 AM Just wanted to let you know that I have been keeping you, your husband and family in my prayers.  I am so happy that you and your husband are doing better.  I pray God bless you all with comfort and strength.

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