I have a long journal to write so here goes ....

 My husband works at AAA as a Travel Agent. In May he was in Costa Mesa for training ..I had my second son May 10th and he was in the hospital for 3 weeks ....my husband wasn't home during the week and when he did come home it was for a day or so ...I was driving back and forth 30 mins each way to see Jayden in the hospital, then would come home and take care of CJ. I was so incredibly lonely. I ended up meeting this guy and we hung out. It was nice to have someone to talk to and keep me company during my stressful time ...Chris ended up finding out and things have been rocky since. I still see this guy around and sometimes he will call me ....at the time, I never wanted things to go any further but I started feeling myself letting my shield down. Chris had done some really hurtful and destructive things to me in our marriage and so I felt like maybe I could use this as a way to get back at him .....

I think I'm becoming bored in my marriage ...honestly. It may sound bad but it's true. I met Chris and shortly after became pregnant with our first son. I felt like I never really got a chance to have fun with him and even get to know him more. I like to have fun and I'm finding out slowly but surely that he does not like the same things I do ....I am starting to believe what others are telling me, we rushed into this. There are times that I want to drop the kids off and maybe go out dancing (Chris doesn't dance and I used to be a dancer) or do something fun.

I just don't know what to do to get that spark back in our marriage because I feel like we won't last for very long. I'm two kids into this marriage and everyday it's the same thing. I feel us growing further apart and sometimes I am so lonely that I just cry. I'm not the type of woman to cheat, but I slowly feel myself going that direction. We were in counseling for a while but now that we don't have insurance we can't afford to go anymore. I guess I have a lot of resentment towards Chris for numerous things. I don't know what to do anymore ...

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veg4a...
Feb. 2, 2008 at 12:43 PM Let him know you are lonely. Maybe he needs to take a vacation from his work and just do something romantic with you. It sounds like you just need a little bit of attention, and he probably feels the need to! :D

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ILove...
Feb. 2, 2008 at 12:46 PM The thing is ...Chris has only been working at AAA for almost a year (it'll be a year in March). When Jayden was born, they were only going to give him a day off and then he would have to go right back, so he had to use some of his vacation time so he could stay home for at least 3 days ...He doesn't have any vacation time now ...

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TayGr...
Feb. 2, 2008 at 12:50 PM Go on date, stay up late with each other to talk or play a game, get up early and go for a walk. Get creative and see what happens. If you really want your marriage to work, it will.  Write him love letters, send him sweet voice mails, etc, etc... Mos importantly COMMUNICATE! Good luck!

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Adria
Feb. 10, 2008 at 11:05 AM I'm gonna email you and see if you are still struggling maybe we can come up with some ideas...

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