iknow everyone here is getting sick of hearing about my depression just like everyone else in my life

 

everyone keeps telling me how much of a burden i am on them, and no one really cares that i'm depressed and pray to not wake up, everytime i go to sleep.

 

 im giving up... 

so im really sorry that i bothered everyone.. i just really needed someone to talk to.. since i have no one, and can't even get to counseling, I'm just giving up - I feel like I've tried everything.. it's not getting better, only worse, so before it gets any worse and I ruin everyone elses lives anymore, I'm just going to withdraw myself from everyone and everything.

 

im done. goodnight.. 

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funny...
Feb. 2, 2008 at 9:19 PM

you need to check yourself into an inpatient treatment center.  This is not normal to feel like this and you are in severe depression. 

 I wish the best for you. 

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p2of9
Feb. 2, 2008 at 9:21 PM

I'll talk to you anytime you want. 

Maybe they're just not hearing you because they're too wrapped up in their own petty stuff.  People can be pretty selfish sometimes.

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child...
Feb. 2, 2008 at 9:22 PM If you need someone to talk to you can vent to me, I don't mind.  I don't know your whole story but I know having children changes everything--moods, relationships, your level of sanity!!!!  Have you talked to your doctor about how you feel?  All my family lives in a different state so I know it's hard for me sometimes too when I just need to talk--sometimes men just don't understand.  I'll pray for you.  Keep me posted!!  We're all loved in the eyes of the Lord!!!!

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blond...
Feb. 2, 2008 at 9:23 PM

  Dont give up, I am in the same boat, I am 22 yrs old, I have 2 lovely daughters, one that is not even 3 months old yet, my husband just been deployed. I have gaurdian ship of my 8 yr old nephew but no longer could take care of him, from the depression, so i had to let him go back to his moms.

  I am here if you want some one to talk to

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PROUD...
Feb. 2, 2008 at 9:27 PM awww that's sad. did you just have a baby? i felt really, no, no i had really bad PPD after i had my first baby. and then again with my second, but nothing like the first. i don't think you need counseling i think you need some meds. trust me they (the docs, or anyone else) won't take you baby away. they'll give you meds, that make you happy : ) i know cause i tortured myself thinking "what if they take my baby away from me." so i never went. thank god nothing bad happened. then my cousin had it, but threatened to KILL her baby, so i made her go. and all they did was give her some meds, and she started feeling fine after that. of course she really isn't a good mother anyways, but at least she didn't do anything bad after that.i hope you feel better soon. ((((hugs))))

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Wiife...
Feb. 2, 2008 at 9:28 PM i dont even have the energy or desire to talk, like, i just cant do it anymore... i dont want to lose my daughter because of this, so i cant check myself into a hospital or whatever, i just.. im sad.

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autum...
Feb. 2, 2008 at 9:28 PM Dont give up you need to be strong. i thought I was depressed and it just turned out I was stressed over things I dont even have control over you gotta just let it go, because you are in-charge of your own happiness cant nobody make you happy if you cant make yourself happy

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Wiife...
Feb. 2, 2008 at 9:33 PM

everyone says that, if i knew how to just magically be strong, i would do that. but like i said ive tried everything

 

im not capable of just "letting it all go" and "being strong" 

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Wiife...
Feb. 2, 2008 at 9:34 PM

and i might be preggo again by this same asshole.

 

i didnt even fuck him again, how could this be possible? its like, i cant catch a break. 

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blond...
Feb. 2, 2008 at 9:42 PM ok hunny you have to have sex to get preggo. I am sure you know this, lol my dr did put me on meds they help a little but I still get pretty sad at times

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