I have been struggling with this for the past few weeks... Give everything to God....Oh Lord how can I do that?  In April 2007 I moved down here to Indianapolis, 4 hours from my hometown.  I had never been more than 20 minutes from my parents house.  As I moved down here there was no more free childcare, no more friends down here that I had known all my life...yeah well sure I could call them and I had email but I couldnt call them up anymore and invite them to meet me in 20 min at the Starbucks for a latte.  In May 2007 my husband left me.  I was devastated.  I was like ok God ..now what?  You closed all the doors up in Northern Indiana, my job is gone, my home, everything, I dont know anyone down here, I havent found a job yet oh God where do I go from here.  I hit rock bottom like big time.  One night it got to me so badly that I hit my knees.  I had prided myself on being this awesome wife and mom and God wasnt really where He needed to be in my life.  Basically I had been working on being Martha Strewart and kinda left God in the dust.  Its funny but God will catch up with us and it wont be pretty.  Just like he was catching up with me back in May.  As I hit my knees it all just came pouring out of me.  God I dont know where to go, what to do, I left you out of things God and now look how messed up things are God I dont know where to go or what to do, my husband has left me and is running from you and Father I am running to you Father please help me Father I give it all to you...I just sat there after I had given it all to God.  I was exhausted , my whole body energy was just spent.  I had given everything over to God.  But thats when the walls came down and thats when God could take my heart and do what He needed to do with it.  I found an awesome church at that time about 10 miles from home that had an awesome kids program..my kids began going and making friends and I went there and became spiritually fed.  In June I was blessed with a job on my husbands military post.  I had applied for a job on the other side of the post away from my husband but God didnt want it like that.  God blessed me with a job 2 doors down from my husbands office..I was like ok God what are you doing, but for the first time in my life I trusted Him.  Remember I had given everything over to God I couldnt take it back now..He was in control.  It took about 2 months but my husband got the nerve to call me up and ask me out to lunch.  I began praying for him everyday.   But then I picked up at a garage sale a copy of Power of a Praying Wife and I read it and it touched me beyond words.  One thing I got out of this book was that I cannot change my husband --oh really God I thought I could by nagging him and showing him the way things needed to be.  I was wrong.  I could not change my husband, only the Lord could, but I could change myself...well okay God what do I need to change?  I have given you everything ..God showed me that there was much more I could change.  My attitude for one ---I had become a very negative person thanks in part to my parents who are also very negative people and thats what I grew up with but if you give it to God He can change all the bad things into positive things.  My time in the word and in prayer for two.  Okay God I admit I dont give you enough time but I am busy, then show me how Lord and thats when later than night I got a phone call from a friend back home telling me about Cafemom.  I explored the site and found there was so much I could do once I got my eyes off myself and gave everything to Him.  I could minister to others and God has opened doors like crazy for me to minister to women who are in situations alot like mine.  There are even women whom I have made friendships with outside Cafemom.  I have come a long way since April 2007---my husband and I are talking, he has quit dating the other woman and is now working on things in his life, but I have never quit praying for him.  When I lost my home this past Christmas he helped me to get a new home, a 2br townhouse and had all the bills and the lease put in his name.  God is really working on Him in alot of areas.  My job is going great I just got a promotion and a raise.  Its so nice knowing that after I pay my tithe I dont have to struggle anymore.  Its awesome that I for the first time in my 30 years KNOW God not just KNOW ABOUT Him.  Yeah sure there are still struggles in my life but with each day I give to God and He handles things the way He wills the more peace I am given.  I have been receiving emails and pm's and phone calls from women who have issues in their marriage, in their life, that their life seems hopeless and I take each request to the Lord in prayer.  I tell these womens get to know their heavenly father.  God has shown me about my marriage that I dont need my husband to survive, I have the Lord but I would like my husband in my life, there is a big difference.  There are so many things that we ask God for---Oh God I want the house and the perfect husband and the kids and the new car and everything but then God stops us and asks...Hey where do I fit in in all of this?  Makes you think doesnt it?  Where does God fit in in the scheme of your life?  Is He first or is He shoved in behind all those wants and wishes and dreams or maybe shoved in behind that job.  God has shown me my life is like a puzzle.  Kids, home, job, husband, dreams, goals are alll the pieces and God is that center piece, the piece that brings all those other pieces together.  I pray that God is your center piece because without Him as your center your puzzle isnt complete, your life isnt balanced and you are constantly wanting more.  Paul tells us in the NT to be content with what we have.  I am learning from experience that we have to be content and take care of what we have before God will bless us with more.  So those of you facing some serious issues in your life ..stop!  step back and take a look ..search your heart, where is God in your problem?  Are you looking to Him for answers and guidance?  Or are you being like Sarah and taking matters into your own hands?  Give it all to Him, He will give you the peace and the strength that you need to live life with a smile on your face and a spring in your step and a peace in your heart.  Give it all to Him and leave it with Him, dont take it back up again.  Have a blessed day in the name of the Lord!

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jeana
Feb. 3, 2008 at 11:20 AM great post! With God all things are possible!

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mom_IN
Feb. 4, 2008 at 5:08 PM great post showed me alot that i need to just give to god let him deal with it

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Jmor
Feb. 4, 2008 at 8:44 PM Thank you!  I needed that!

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MOMMY...
Feb. 7, 2008 at 2:10 PM oh Trace, I think that was beautiful...........I remember you going thru a lot of these steps. I remember seeing you go from this hurt broken hearted victim to a warrior with God.  I pray all things continue to get better and better in your life. God will bless you for your transformation.........love Julie

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1Navy...
Feb. 13, 2008 at 11:48 AM I am so glad evrything is looking up for you! You have gone threw alot and I have seen that! I thank you for your prayers and your help in my situation! I pray that God will to continue to work on us all. Thanks!

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