Really I'm more jealous then pissed but I'm still pissed!!

I'm 36 weeks pregnant and want a VBAC so bad!! I don't/can't have another c-section. I'm tired of telling people why I don't want to have a c-section and they just blow it off like I'm being stupid or try to make comments on how women do it everyday. I DON"T GIVE A FLYING FU** what other women do or don't do everyday! I DO NOT want another c-section. I have nobody in Kansas to help me! My husband will be at work and the kids wont let him put them to sleep. And yes I know well they will have to get use to it, BUT hearing them scream for me for hours isn't all that relaxing when you have a newborn to tend to as well. If I were to have a c-section I can't go up and down stairs. My kids are up the stairs. So what do I do? HUH honestly?! My baby is breech and I have a whole week to get her to turn. If she doesn't guess what? C-section.

 And some are saying oh well babies will flip right up until the point you go into labor. YES I KNOW THAT!! BUT I have to go to a different Dr. about an hour and thirty minutes away. He's the one will actually be handling my vbac (if I get one). If the baby doesn't turn by next week he wont see me. I can't have the baby at home because I have history of placenta accreta. I'm pissed that all these other women get to have a vbac and the one thing I've been wanting for 2 years is slipping down the drain. My husband doesn't truly understand just how much I want a vbac and everyone else doesn't seem to care. I'm pissed and jealous all at the same time. I just want to sit and cry and cry.

Tags: pissed, labor, husband, vent, angry

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