My Spirit is Healing

[hjfern]

New Revelations in my life never cease to amaze me, and I am glad to be more in awe of those revelations than spiteful.

I read the story about Kelsey Briggs over a month ago.  I had seen it about a year ago too, but I kept myself from watching the video and reading the story because I am a child abuse Survivor and suffer from PTSD and anxiety.  I was not ready at that time to see these kinds of stories for fear of what my uncontrollable reaction would be.  I haven’t slept much since reading it, but we’re working through it.

I have worked at my relationship with Jesus since returning to Him and church in 2002, but in the past few weeks I have made some pretty big strides.  I have always been very afraid of opening up and allowing people, even Jesus in.  That wall is almost completely gone now, and I am ready for another new chapter in my life.

I have started a Hugs Across America chapter for my county and pretty much just spilled everything on my mind and in my heart in the past few weeks to my husband.  It has been so releasing for me, and I do feel ready to take on my next challenges in life.  I will be 30 years old in the fall of this year, and I am enjoying this self-reflection path I seem to be on at the moment.  I will continue to follow blindly, and trust in God, letting go of control. 

I am okay and I will continue to be just that, no matter what life brings to me.  This is the most Peaceful feeling I have ever had the chance to experience. 

He will see me through.

Amen.

[kimberlyd768]

Feb. 19, 2008 at 8:30 PM He will see you through!  He promises in His Word that he will take care of us.  You are making a huge decision and he will be there for you.  Keep up the hard work and it will show results.

[new_beginning2]

Feb. 19, 2008 at 8:46 PM letting Jesus in is a BIG deal.  Way to go! As if to close the door on one chapter and opening up the next for you.  God bless you and may your feelings of peace continue.