I will be brave, I will not let frea control me ... I WILL see Riverdance!

[Mama3A]

Tonight I am supposed to go see Riverdance with my sisters, whom I don't see very often. My Mom bought us tickets for Christmas. The show is 1 hr drive away. We are supposed to meet at my middle sister's house before and go for dinner - she lives 20 mins away.

The problem - over the last 24 months I have developed a driving phobia. I have refused to drive in snow, refused to drive in the dark and refused to drive a place I've never been or don't go often. I have missed so many things. Appointments, outings, events etc.

Recently I took a winter driving course to tey and help me get over my fears. It helped a bit but I am still afraid.

I used to be a dancer when I was young and I was going to take  a Mommy dance class for fun but I didn't register because it meant driving 30 mins 1 way at night. I am sad about that. I should have just done it.

So no more! I am NOT going to miss a chance to visit with my sisters and I am NOT going to miss going to Riverdance!

I am going to suck it up and drive tonight. I know I'll probaly be driving home around midnight in winter, in the dark - the worst combonation you can get ... but I live on a farm and if I don't start driving I am going to keep getting more and more isolated. I can't just call a taxi.

My hubby has been wonderful, even though he doesn't understand my fear. I don't understand it either - I used to be fine and nothing traumatic happened to make me afraid. I don't know why it started.

He even took off work to get me to a Dr. apt. He drove 1 hr home, 1.5 hrs into the city and 1.5 hrs home to do it. That suscka  for him!

Now with gas prices so high he doesn't mind me not driving everyday LOL but he is sick of double trips to town.

So wish me luck - even if you think I'm being silly ... this is a big deal to me and I'm determined to get over this irrational fear. I'll let you know how it goes.

 

[Mama3A]

Feb. 21, 2008 at 4:12 PM Sorry - I forgot to speel check LOL I hate you can't edit a journal post!

(Original Poster)

[scoobystone1]

Feb. 21, 2008 at 4:13 PM omgoodness i am so freaking jealous of you i want to see that soooooo bad have fun

[Mama3A]

Feb. 21, 2008 at 4:13 PM Okay so I CAN"T type - OMG! I meant spell check (LOL I spelt Spell wong! LMAO!)

(Original Poster)

[Mama3A]

Feb. 22, 2008 at 1:40 PM We had a great time! AND I drove home no problem ... I don't think I'd be good if it was snowing but it was clear and the roads were dry! I am soooo glad I went!

(Original Poster)