I feel that I am losing our second child.  I'm only 6 weeks 4 days pregnant (according to my LMP) but I am finding it difficult to bear. I've been crying all day long as I lie in bed praying for the best.

It started on Thursday night.  I had some light pink spotting at work which then turned into a light red streaking.  After spending almost 6 hours in the ER, the doctor told us that the ultrasound they performed did show a heartbeat, but that it was not as strong as they would have liked to see.  They also said that the baby wasn't measuring as far along as they said I was supposed to be.  My cervix was closed and I had not passed any tissue of any kind.  They sent me home with a note to excuse me from work for 3 days.

Yesterday (Friday) was very uneventful and I thought I could relax.  Until today.

I awoke this morning with bright red bleeding.  It didn't soak through a pad, but was there each and every time I wiped.  By this afternoon I had been seeing very small clots.  I called my doctors office and they advised me to stay off my feet and call them on Monday to schedule another U/S.  The bleeding has not stopped.  I'm also experiencing some dull back pain.  I no longer "feel" pregnant.  My boobs, which have been sore since the week before I got my positive test result, feel normal now. 

I want all of this to just be in my head.  I know that some women have some bleeding and still deliver healthy babies. 

My child had a heartbeat.  I can't bear to think that the little beat may not be there on Monday, but I don't want to give myself false hope either. 

I spent a lot of time today talking to my stomach, telling my baby that as much as I would love to see them now that it's not time for them yet.  Pleading with the baby to hold on and I promised to make it up to them however I could. 

I just want everything to be ok.  Our families and jobs know that we are expecting, but only his family knows that I have been bleeding.  I dont want to face the world.  I just want to curl up in a ball and sleep the day away so I don't have to deal with explaining to everyone that my baby is gone. 

I could use all the prayers I can get.  If there is anyone out there who has experienced this but had a happy outcome, I'd love to hear from you.  If you had a bad outcome, I want to hear that too.  I want to be fully prepared, no matter how terrible it might be.

If you are still reading, thank you. 

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gusti...
Feb. 23, 2008 at 11:13 PM i will pray for you that the baby makes it julie

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purvi...
Feb. 23, 2008 at 11:14 PM thank you

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ShellyW.
Feb. 23, 2008 at 11:17 PM I'm sorry that you're going through this.  It's so hard to tell what's going on.  You just have to trust that whatever is supposed to happen will happen. 

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rasta...
Feb. 23, 2008 at 11:59 PM i will pray for you.i know how you feel i have been there

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nurse...
Feb. 24, 2008 at 12:32 AM

if it helps give you a piece of mind-go on into the er- pregnancy isn't a time to stress- when i started spotting with my last one- i just went and took another home test- silly as it may sound- as soon as i saw the positive sign again i was relieved-just try to take it easy-pray about it- try not to stress too much and as i said before- if it gives you a piece of mind- go on into the er & get checked- sometimes that is what it takes to ease the mind- just having that dr. say- it's ok-

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KYarger
Feb. 24, 2008 at 10:50 PM wow... I really hope that everything is okay.  Please let me know, your post was very touching, and I would really like to know that everything is alright with you.

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purvi...
Feb. 24, 2008 at 11:01 PM

Thank you all so much for you comments.

I'm going to be calling my doctor's office in the morning.  I'm still bleeding off and on and passing some smaller clots (nothing to big yet, so I'm still hopeful).

I decided not to go back to the emergency room over the weekend.  It's to stressful to sit there for 6 hours and leave without any answers.  I hope I can get some in the morning.

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bugsa...
Feb. 24, 2008 at 11:06 PM

I am sorry to hear what you are going through. 

I don't know what will happen on Monday for you.  I was in your position several times, and its not a happy time when the answers are unknown.  Just know that whatever happens, it was meant to be. 

Always remain hopeful.

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ashas...
Feb. 24, 2008 at 11:13 PM i relly know what you fill like at 15 i was in the wrong croud i lost a baby at 3 weeks then i was told i could never have kids again i am now 31 at the age of 30 i was having some sevier pain in my lower right side of my stomach this had been going on for weeks so my husband started to get worried when i could not get up becouse the pain was so bad so he took me to the er tay ran a bunch of test and about an hour latter thay came back and told use thay fount the problem i was pregnat i kept pain a lot me and my husband were out and i felt some discomfort i went to the bathroom and fount a lot of blood i rushed to the er and thay told me all was o.k. but deep inside i knew diffrent 45 mint. latter i lost my child i was 4 and a hafe months pregnat it about killed me but god spoke to me and told me there was a reson for all 1 week and 5 days latter i was pregnat i had a ruff pregnacie but i now have a buttiful 6 month old baby girl all becouse i trusted in god  so keep up the faith and rember that god is there and he nows the out come

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