Sometimes life hurts.

[heydooney]

My cousin is in surgery probably as I write this, to remove an ectopic pregnancy and her fallopian tube along with it. She has been trying to get pregnant for over a year and has already had a misscarriage and now this. There are people in this world who do not value human life and abuse or even murder their own children, and here is the best mom I know, aching at the loss of two babies by the age of 26. She deserves better.

Kalten is sick with a low-grade fever and very fussy. We spent at least an hour on starfall.com tonight on the letters M and N over and over. He cries about everything and is very short-tempered and impatient. It is a miracle I am able to sit for these few minutes and gather my thoughts. He is nursing right now but stops every so often to fuss. I hope he falls asleep soon, it's 10:00!

His party is over and now he's just another one-year-old. I always get depressed after big events, and I have been looking forward to this party since he was 6 months old. My house is a mess because of the party and he won't let me put him down to clean it. Paul worked funky overtime so he is sleeping now, and he's "so tired" I probably won't get any help from him either.

Paul's parents sent us a $40 gift card, and I lost it. I'm furious with myself for being so irresponsible with something so valuable. I thought I had put it in my wallet, but it's not there. Paul keeps saying "it's around here somewhere," but what if it's not? What if I did put it in my wallet and it fell out at the post office that day I was out? $40 is a LOT of money to us right now. The bills are bleeding us dry this winter. We have almost nothing until Paul gets paid again, which is not for another two weeks. Kalten will need diapers soon and we'll need groceries. We're eating a lot of rice lately. Kalten has two appointments on Tuesday, one with the chiropractor and one for his 12-month checkup. Each of those is a $20 copay, plus I didn't pay the chiro for the last visit because we didn't have anything, so that's $60 we will owe that we don't have.

I know these things are only temporary, but life just hurts right now. I feel like we just can't catch a break. 

[Justforme]

Feb. 24, 2008 at 11:37 PM Sorry everything is going so  bad for you right now. Just keep your head up mama and things will get better. Just hold on tight to the ones you love, and know 'this too shall pass'

[ZacsMom]

Feb. 25, 2008 at 9:34 AM

I'm sorry that everything seems to be going wrong at the moment.  It will get better, I promise.  Life is full of ups and downs but I know how hard it is to remember the ups at times like this.  Enjoy your little man today and play; the mess in your house can always be cleaned up later!  Try to look forward to the spring/summer when we can all get out and go play at the park or go swimming!!  Chin-up young person!