Do you ever wonder?

[EzzieKsMom]

Do you ever wonder where time goes?  I mean...seriously. This is the first opportunity since starting training on February 4th that I've had to sit with Ezden one-on-one and I am amazed. It seems like my baby boy has just grown up so much just in the past month. I feel bad, because I'm not around as much anymore and I feel like I'm just missing so much. Justin has taught him a lot of things since I've been gone though. Where his tummy is, where his nose is, where his chest is...and it's so cute. He says "noe" when he points to his nose. He says a very funny form of "tummy" when he points to his stomach. He climbs. He dances. He sings. It seems like such a short time ago that I was bringing him home from the hospital, scared to death of every move that I made and wondering how I could possibly get him through the first year of his life. Now he's a little person. He doesn't NEED me as much anymore, but still enough to make me think that the job of being his mommy is the most important thing in the world. It will be a bittersweet realization the day he doesn't need me at all anymore. I will relish the fact that I helped make him the man I know he's going to be. I will cry inside because the baby that I once knew, the one that needed me, loved me and thought I was the world, will be gone. But I won't let him know just how sad I am. I will stand back, a smile upon my face and a promise that no matter where the world takes him, no matter what road he takes, "mommy" will always be there.... with loving arms wide open.