In the 5th year of my mothers death ...

[Blackdress]

In the 5 years that my mother has been gone.. I have seen my children have children, I watched my little one smile, learn to walk and talk.. Had endless talks with my sister about how much we missed her and wishe she would be here to see her grandbabies and great grandbabies.... Shed enough tears to fill the ocean.. I've lost a son to a sad sickness.. BUT I still don't know how to say goodbye to the one person who will love me no matter who I am.. How do you just not remember the way she would smell, or how she looked when she would cook them yummy dinners ?? Or the sound of her voice !?!? OHHH the Christmas cookies.. The touch of her when you new your world was gonna crash ?!?! How she made it all okay ?? We as her children have missed so much of what she could bring to our lives over these last 5 years.. Every birthday she has missed, births and the holidays.. We miss our mother every second of every minute of every damn day of our lives... But what we miss most is the LOVE she would bring with her...

I LOVE YOU MOM !!!!

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[Boots21]

Mar. 9, 2008 at 5:32 PM Hello, my heart goes out to you. I do not think it ever goes anywhere. My dear momma has been gone for 21yrs. And oh what I would give for all you talked about. I miss her everyday more as I have gotton older also. I am 49 now. She was my everything. I just wanted to say I kinda understand. *peace* Boots PS. the 2 deaths  that have been the hardest for me... my mom and my husband,the love of my life & best friend to cancer in  2003. 

[AislinnAsparas]

Aug. 13, 2008 at 2:06 AM

I know this is an old post, but still wanted to comment.  I can totally relate to this.  I lost my mom -- almost 8 years ago -- she was so young and incredible.  Smelled like Channel No. 5!  An incredible woman with a 6th sense -- she knew when things were awry; loved us no matter what; thought and believed we could or be anything we wanted; my biggest fan!  And no one can replace that.  I have thought as you that she missed the birth of my daughter and she would have been crazy for her -- making her beautiful clothes!  My heart still aches for her every day and I usually have moments of tears on a daily basis...no matter how old we are -- we still all want our mommies...our greatest protector and the greatest love of our life!