Bed time

[Kids2]

Well, its time for me to go to bed but before I do I must write about my day.  It was a very productive day I guess you could say.  After being a stay at home mom for almost a year now I'm going to journey back into the work life beginning most likely on April 1st.  And in doing so I've been overwhelmed with emotion today.  Excitement that I will finally be able to feel like an adult again, no more cartoons no more kids books, no more coloring.  But thinking of all that then leads to the sad emotion....no more books, no more cartoons, no more coloring, I'm going to miss that so much.  So I start to cry being the emotional basket case that I am.  Am I going to survive without my kids?? Then I get nervous.....about what?  Its just a job. You'll have plenty of books and coloring and cartoons when you get home on the weekends. 

 So then I get home and can't wait to see my kids, only to come home  to a house full of tears.  Cecilia hasn't taken a nap today and isn't feeling very well. Shes going through a meee meee meee phase..which will hopefully be ending soon.  But you can't help but to pick her up and hold her so tight and never let her go.  Until she starts kicking and screaming that is.....She falls asleep on the couch at around 6:30 and in the process of transporting her to bed she wakes up, at this point she doesn't want to go to bed...and all she does is cry.  This continues for about 3 and a half more hours until she finally decides to stop fighting it and falls asleep.  But all of her screaming wakes the baby up.  No relaxing for mom....but a bottle and nice burp put her back to sleep and at 10:30 mom finally gets free time.  Until she realizes she needs to run to the store, because she forgot something.....so its now 11:30 and I sit alone in this peaceful house.....and the only thing I want to do...is sleep, just to wake up and do it allllll over again....

 And I wouldn't trade it for the world.