I think this blog is more of what i have on my mind and things i just want to get out more than anything else..
Ever since our first adoption failed, i truly don't know what to think anymore, i know i don't want to give up on trying to adopt a child in the future, but i guess that is it, i really don't want to wait for the future to come around.. I sometimes wonder why God dealt me this hand, why he hasn't let my husband and I become parents, I mean my husband is a wonderful father to a daughter that really isn't his, and I'm her second mom, i love that little girl like no other. Now why wont he give us a chance to become parents to a child that needs a mother and a father? I'm more frustrated than anything else i guess... this wasn't supposed to turn into a rant. I know all things happen for a reason, but come the F*** on now. Just wish things in life were easier and not so heartbreaking.