I think this blog is more of what i have on my mind and things i just want to get out more than anything else..


 Ever since our first adoption failed, i truly don't know what to think anymore, i know i don't want to give up on trying to adopt a child in the future, but i guess that is it, i really don't want to wait for the future to come around.. I sometimes wonder why God dealt me this hand, why he hasn't let my husband and I become parents, I mean my husband is a wonderful father to a daughter that really isn't his, and I'm her second mom,  i love that little girl like no other. Now why wont he give us a chance to become parents to a child that needs a mother and a father? I'm more frustrated than anything else i guess...  this wasn't supposed to turn into a rant. I know all things happen for a reason, but come the F*** on now. Just wish things in life were easier and not so heartbreaking.


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Mar. 10, 2008 at 12:56 AM I wish things had turned out better for you when you guys were tryin to adopt the 1st time.   I wish I knew what to tell you, im sorry that you guys are having to go thru this....But we love ya. You guys will make great parents.

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Mar. 10, 2008 at 10:20 AM

I've thought this many times myself and so I completely understand what your saying.  Please do not think that God is in any way punishing you for anything - he is not keeping a child away from you whatsoever!  He knows you'll be good parents he's waiting for the child that needs you the most, the child that you need the most. 

Perhaps it is time to branch out some in your adoption process.  Where are you exactly in this and what have you gone through?  Are you working with an agency or an attorney?  Have you put yourself out there on the internet?  Some have had luck in this arena.  What about contacting your church or local hosptials with your profiles? 

You know I use to pray to God about giving me patience.  When you pray for patience God will show you what that means.  He wants you to be patient!  Remember, this is in his time - not yours!

Now that we have Mason,  I don't pray for patience.  I pray for wisdom and strength - because with my little guy we need it!

Good luck - your are in my prayers!


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Mar. 12, 2008 at 2:30 PM I agree with these two ladies... the time will come but you have to have patience. God is waiting for a child that  needs you more than ever and with a little time you will have your little angel. You know I love you and you know my mom has adopted two kids so if you ever need to chat... you do know my number!! Love ya lots

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