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Where do we go from here?...
- Mar 18, 2008 at 1:52 AM
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I found myself asking this question many times tonight.
The fear of returning to school has overwhelmed DD and I cannot console her. She's petrified. My bouncy, bubbly, cheerful little girl stares blankly at the ceiling wiping away the tears.
I sit here with an aching heart for my daughter. It's after midnight and I hear her sniffles as she cries herself to sleep tonight.
She has literally begged for us not to send her back. I feel like our hands are tied. Damn if we do, damn if we don't. With only a few short weeks of school left, our options are quite limited. For now that means she must go back to the district until we successfully set up other arrangements.
We fully explained to her tonight on a level we felt was age appropriate. I made it quite clear what would have to be done to our satisfaction tomorrow before she will be left in the hands of the district. I wanted her to know we were not just throwing her back into the enemy territory and leaving her to fly solo.
We have gone through the student handbook and discussed what the proper protocol is and to use and follow them with the first sign of trouble. I am one for obeying rules but her safety has to come first. We have also enacted a safety plan including if necessary to go to the office and repeatedly demand to have the police called and if all else fails she has been instructed to phone 911 from my cell that we're going to allow her to carry.
Three of the assailants ride her bus. I now have to change my schedule to accommodate transporting her to and from school. Although I would walk to end of the earth barefoot for my children, admittedly there is a minute bit of resentment that I must be the one inconvenienced rather than the parents of her assailants. DD's school begins an hour earlier than DS's. With my middle DS, I'm dreading even the thought of having to wake him at 5:30 am to get him and his brother ready in time to take DD to school, get home with 20 minutes to spare before youngest DS has to be at his school then begin my homeschooling day for middle DS.
It's a living nightmare to change DS's schedule. He can't handle change. I know no matter how hard I will try in the morning, a meltdown will be inevitable.
Please forgive me for my rambling...I'm physically and emotionally drained. I shall pick myself up, dust off and do what has to be done. It's late, I'm tired, See ya in the a.m.
- Em
Comments:
This situation from the start has brought up the mama bear in me. I really feel this school district (just like my dd's) has failed to provide a safe learning environment. Makes me furious your daughter is so distraught, how can she even begin to pay attention and learn when she is afraid? I will be thinking of you both today ~ big {{{{{hugs}}}}.
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I'm so sorry your family is having to go thru this. I will keep your daughter in prayer today as she faces the challenges of returning to school. Does she have a close friend that has a similar schedule? If so, can the friend "have her back" ~ I definitely wouldn't want her going into the restroom alone again. Please update us later as to how her day went.
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