I went back to work yesterday.. I honestly think it was the hardest thing i have ever done.. I have not spent more than an hour away from my daughter since the moment she was born,

 Shes my angel.. and the light of my soul.. so leaving her was terrible for me.. but I managed to slip out the door while she was asleep...  If I would have looked at her big blue eyes, and the sweet little grin she gives me when i hold her.. I would have not been able to walk out that door..

 About 2 hours into my shift, about the same time I started to feel sorta ok about the fact that I had left my baby .. Nick called me.. He sounded distraut, and I could her Kenzie crying in the back ground.. I knew eactly what her problem was.. that cry was "THE MOMMY PLEASE HOLD ME" cry. 

 My heart sank even lower into the ground when he told me that she woke up about 45 mins after I left and thats when the crying started. he fed her, changed her, held her, and even tried giving her a bath.. which normally she loves.. no good..

3 phone calls to me later he decided to put the phone down to her ear and have me talk to her..

 

The crying stopped..

 

she really did just want her momma.. so later that night when he had to feed her again.. he called and put me on speaker afterwards and we talked her to sleep...

 

all she wanted was her momma..

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Ifiwe...
Mar. 18, 2008 at 6:07 PM The first day is always the hardest. You'll be ok.

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lilsma
Mar. 18, 2008 at 6:08 PM It breaks your heart, I know.  She sounds like a sweet baby and you sound like a good momma.  It's tough on a baby and a mom as well when mom goes back to work.

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berry...
Mar. 18, 2008 at 6:14 PM

SORRY SWEETIE... THAT WAS PROBABLY THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE TOO. ALL'S I CAN OFFER AS FAR AS ADVISE IS IT DOES GET LEAVING EACH DAY.....TRY TO STAY STRONG.

 

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Caris...
Mar. 18, 2008 at 6:16 PM

omg that just broke my heart! I hope it gets easier for you!

I have no advice because I sahm and haven't left my daughter longer than an few hours and she's 16 months old!

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Lizzi...
Mar. 31, 2008 at 11:25 PM That almost made me cry.  I can't even think about leaving her...each time I do I freak out...and I only have 4 weeks left. I am going to cry each day on my way to work...I just know it. My poor babt girl all by herself with someone who has 5 other kids to look after....it is going to kill me.

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