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[LuminousMom]

I am in this place in my life I have rarely ever been... I am so happy, and normal people might think thats great but what it means to me is that the roof is about to fall in. Everything is going so well... something must be hiding around the corner, waiting to wreck us. Right? Or maybe I have just finally reached that part of me that I never could before... maybe I am finally satisfied with everything in my life, and most important, myself.

The kids are wonderful... they are so happy and healthy. Micah is trying my patience but.. like my mom reminds me, he is 3 and thats his job. He is so strong and smart, and clever! He is funny.. and active, and loves hugs, kisses, and attention... but he also plays well by himself so I dont go totally nuts. Sidda is walking... can you believe it? So grown up. She is hilarious.. always laughing, always playing. She rarely cries or wines, but she does really like to be held.. something we have to work on. She is curious about EVERYTHING and asks "whats that?" about everything she sees.

The house is wonderful... we have worked so hard. This winter I took the kitchen apart... sanded, primed, painted, scrubbed, painted more, and came out with a gorgeous new kitchen... the cabinets are better than I expected. We gutted and re-did the bathroom.. new floors, new vanity.. We installed wood floors in the kitchen and hall.. Brian kicked ass putting up new baseboard trim and its amazing. I painted and painted more.. and now this house is so entirely ours. Sidda’s bathroom got painted from top to bottom and is so modern/retro its adorable. Its so comforting to walk through and know that it is the way it is because we have worked so hard and put so much of ourselves into it. the kids bedrooms are theirs.. and reflect what they love.. and thats so fun for us. We put up picket fence in the front yard and had about 10 people stop and say they loved it and that we were making the house so beautiful.. Its so cool to see that the neighbors are recognising our hard work.

We found a playground for the back yard and hopefully we can get that up soon. We just need to put in sod, pavers, and this playground and... *gasp* the house will be complete. Of course the living room is far from done, but that needs to wait anyway. Brians next bonus I suppose... because we need a new couch.. we need new furniture in there badly. Is it possible we have done all this? Is it possible we are so happy?! I so so so dreaded moving to Utah.. but now it feels like home... its scary and exciting all at once.

I have so much to be thankful for... my wonderful family for coming to visit so much.. my wonderful sissy for taking her hard earned money to fly to Utah, when she has a wedding to plan and her own life to worry about... my wonderful friends for letting me know they miss me- it does mean alot. For once in my life, I feel like we are on the right track. We are tired and poor... renovations arent easy on you OR your wallet... but its worth it! Its paying off, and we are so happy...

Its a big deal to be this happy.. a really big deal

[thacia]

Mar. 29, 2008 at 8:09 PM

Congratulations. Enjoy every minute of it. You are truly blessed. And when trouble comes your way (which it will, it comes everyones way) remember this post. Remember how truly blessed you STILL are. Dr. Dobson says that if we can go about two weeks without some sort of trouble or stress we are doing great.

Life is just that way. So enjoy every second of it.

Even with my troubles I am still so blessed. Lord, help me to never forget. thacia

[joe22]

Mar. 30, 2008 at 2:31 PM

IM so happy to hear that ur happy and finally beginning to feel 'at home'.

It takes and I think you have done such a wonderful job on the house and with your children who are truly gorgeous by the way.

 Once its all finished - step back, take a deep breath and think - this is OUR home - we've done this.

Its a great accomplishment - - well done hunni xx

 

Joanne xx

[kearneycloud9]

Mar. 30, 2008 at 2:58 PM

Sidda's walking!! That's great! When did she start that?

I'm soo glad that your happy! It's hard to accomplish happiness in life and if you're able to do it for a while - even if the roof falls in (hopefully not to bad) - then it was worth the effort. I can't wait to see the house fully finished! It's soo exciting to love where and who you live with!