Not a good day..

[W4amircale2]

I am not having a good day.  I should be happy and count my blessings..but I just want to cry and scream!  How many more months and years will pass, and AF just keeps coming!
I am so sick of it!  I just don't understand.  I got af 5 days early,  but I am spotting,  have had cramps since Thursday, but still no full flow...No its not implantation...I don't know what it is, I don't know if it is the Maca Root that I am taking , I did O super early this month, but started the Maca 5 days after O..I don't know...
All I know is that I am feeling really depressed and moody and no matter how much I try to talk myself out of it, all I want to do is eat and cry :(...  And these dawm mothers that make their babies cry while they shop makes me crazy!, and the ones that shop and don't even care where their kid is, is worse!  Sorry needed to vent...
I really don't know how much I can take of my job and ttc...
I want it to just happen naturally, no more RE...I am trying so hard to have faith and leave it in God's hands, but I am having a tough time!  I hope this blows over, QUICK!  I hate when I feel like this, and did I mention, my back feels broken...all the symptoms of a PG, but just FU@#'en PMS!!!!  I HATE U AF!

[rennez]

Apr. 8, 2008 at 5:39 PM I totally can relate!  It's so hard when you try and try and other people have what you want, and sometimes it came so easily for them.  Then it appears they're taking it for granted.  I'll keep ya in my prayers!

[larissacst]

Apr. 8, 2008 at 6:00 PM i can't say anything to make it better but (((hugs)))

[Choochie87]

Apr. 8, 2008 at 6:19 PM sorry hunni I know just what you are going through I feel the same way no more RE just me and hubby! Goodluck keep you head up and Faith strong!

[LisaMarieF6]

Apr. 8, 2008 at 7:01 PM im sorry sweety! i hope that you feel better soon.

[fstrmomto3]

Apr. 8, 2008 at 8:14 PM I am so sorry you are going through all of this...I so know where you are coming from...I go through the same thing...every month...I hope you feel better soon!!! And I hope you get your miracle soon!! You know I love ya!!!!

[Caleb_smom]

Apr. 8, 2008 at 10:11 PM I'm totally with ya...sorry for our shltty luck!  Everyone I know is pregnant it seems like.  Grr...all I can say is, just stay strong!

[eband]

Apr. 9, 2008 at 9:40 PM

I'm so sorry Steph!!  I hate those days when there is nothing to do but cry and let it take it's course.  You are always the person I think of when I'm ready to give up and I think, if she can do it for 5 years, I can do it for 2...you are my inspiration!  I know you will feel better soon and I so pray for your miracle.  Stay strong in your faith!!  XoXo, Erin