Today I asked my mom out for dinner with me and the girls. My dad and hubby are both truck drivers and neither were home. I needed some adult conversation and thought hey let me ask her to dinner. The girls were very excited. They love to dine out. It is not something we do a lot of. So it is like a huge treat for them. I let them put on some sun dresses they got for Easter and fancied them up just to make it extra special for them. We went to a local Mexican restaraunt. We sat outside on the patio and ate and watched the cars go by. They were great and loved being able to have a picinic type meal.

When we were done we let them each get a bouncy ball out of the little quarter machine they have there for being so well behaved. I made sure I had the three of them and took my oldest two by the hand and my mom took the youngest who is almost 4.

As we walked out the door and down the ramp from the main entrance my cell phone rang. I knew it was my husband so I let go of my childrens hands and began to get my phone out. I talked to my hubby for 15 seconds to tell him I would call when I got into the car. My kids usually stand right next to me if I let go of their hands because they know not to move.

Well my middle daughter proceeded to keep walking. I thought she was grabbing the hand of my mom infront of me. I did not see her walk past her.

She must have been preoccupied with her new ball. She just kept walking. I looked up in time to see her walk between two parked cars. Then I saw it the van!! The van did not see her. Somehow I froze I knew what was about to happen. Tears came instantly and all I could muster out was a whisper of Oh Emma. Then it kicked in and I screamed and I mean screamed EMMA!!! It startled her enough for her to look up.  The driver of the van must have heard me to because she slammed on the brakes. Hard enough to make a horrible screaching sound. Her car rocked back and forth from the sudden brake.

Emma was three inches from the front of this van. I dont remember how I got to her but I remember being right there. I grabbed her by the arm and pulled her out of the way.  Even now I cant think of how I got to her. My mom cant either she just remembers me being there. I got mad very mad I almost lost one of the most precious things on this earth to me. Something that cannot be replaced! EVER!

I told her she knew better than to keep walking and that she needed to give me the ball and watch what she is doing. All the while I kept thinking to myself why did I answer that damn phone. Why was I so preoccupied. With three kids you can never be preoccupied and I blame myself.

My daughter was almost killed today and it is my fault. I started to think about how I should be calling her dad to tell him we had lost a daughter and he needed to come home. I started to think about what that call would be like. I started to think of my world without her and I just couldnt.

Then my mom said something that made me think. She told Emma that her guardian angel was watching out for her and it wasnt her time. That God had big plans for her. I believe in God so I believe that.

I remember  feeling something hot on my back when I saw it all begin. I remember that same hot feeling being there when I cant explain how I got to my child.

This isnt the first time I almost lost my daughter. She almost died at birth also.  She must really have something special to do in life. Most importantly she makes my life complete. Without her my world is only half finished.

Please hold on to your children when you are out in parking lots and such. Dont get distracted and think it is only 15 seconds. It takes less than that for you to be planning a funeral instead of enjoying a beautiful spring day.

I thank God that I didnt have to make that call today. Most importantly I am so glad that my peaches is not hurt. Scared yes but not hurt.

Today I experienced the pain of a mothers love!

 

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liz1918
Apr. 24, 2008 at 12:25 AM

How awful for you!  I will definatly pay more attention to my kids in parking lots with three kids I am often multitasking and know how easily you can get distracted.  Thankfully your little one is safe.  Don't blame yourself thou, just keep an eye out I know I sure will!

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Tavie...
Apr. 24, 2008 at 12:25 AM Wow, that gave me chills. Your daughter truly does have God watching out for her. I am glad that she is okay.

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Bohda...
Apr. 24, 2008 at 12:26 AM Wow, I could picture that whole situation and it made me get all choked up.  I am so happy that your daughter is okay.  I know what you mean about getting preoccupied.  Our yard is not fenced in and even though our street is quiet I worry but my husband will come it to use the bathroom or get a drink while my two year old stays out.  It drives me crazy.  I always go straight out when he does that.  It doesn't matter what I am doing.  Bohdan doesn't understand that he needs to stay out of the street yet.  We have not lived here long enough to teach him that.  God Bless you and yours.

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green...
Apr. 24, 2008 at 7:40 AM Oh gosh! I hear ya Thank GOD!

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nycbaby
May. 1, 2008 at 11:53 PM OMG!!! I'm sorry Im seeing this now. I am so happy that she is ok. My daughter did that once, I was hugely pregnant and she was only 2.5yo and pulled out of my grasp. My heart just stopped beating for a sec. It was a horrible experience.

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Jalis...
Jun. 23, 2008 at 5:28 PM yep, she SURE does have an angel watching over her little soul!!!!!

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vycki...
Nov. 12, 2008 at 4:06 PM

Thank you Mama for reminding us...never to be too preoccupied! Like you, my children are my world and life without them seems so...well, you know! Hugs and enjoy your kiddos Mama

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Veron...
Oct. 14, 2009 at 9:38 AM

I can't begin to tell you the number of times my little one has been saved by angels-because my husband nor I weren't being vigilant enough (my girl is a Down Syndrome child and has no fear of anything. ) We have to lock doors behind us -no exceptions.  But thank God for His protection and  the angels out there watching us.

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